I'm done being obese. I don't need to be rail thin, but I've been fat my entire life, and I'm tired of it. Tired of not being able to wear the styles I want to wear. Tired of feeling self-conscious in public. Tired of feeling like a whale. Tired of being disgusted by my own body.
I know I'm supposed to love my body, no matter its size and shape, but I don't think that's possible for me. I don't hate myself (most days), but I can say with great confidence that I hate my fat body.
I'm sure you've all heard this story before, but here it is again: I've made countless attempts over the last decade to put an end to the diet-binge cycle. Weight Watchers, South Beach, crash diets, counting calories. They all worked for a while, until I got bored or decided that I liked eating more than I liked the idea of being thin.
I know there's no easy way to lose the weight and that I need to make a permanent lifestyle change if I'm going to succeed. I know all this, yet something else always seems to get in the way. I'm not sure what it is yet, but I'm determined to overcome it.
Thanks for reading my rather long rant! I hope I can give support and encouragement as well as receive it.
~K



