::waves:: hello!
Hi everyone!
I spent most of yesterday and today lurking around this board, and I must say there are so many amazing stories and the amount of love and support here is so attractive! I often find forums that I'll lurk around, read what I want, and then leave but I felt different about you all so here I am as a newly registered member.
I have battled with my weight for pretty much ever... I was a chunky girl in Catholic school, feeling out of place around my skinny classmates in our uniforms... during my teenage years I go heavily involved in an alternative music related scene and used a lot of drugs--this kept my weight down around 125-130, I was 117 at my lowest when I got clean at 18 years old. I've been in recovery for nearly 5 years now and have managed to gain (I could throw up right now, thinking about/confronting it) 60 LBS!
I am a full time student, about to graduate in May (ohmy!); I am in a long-term relationship (a little over 4 years now) and we live together. My family is, well, dysfunctional. I've basically been taking care of myself for a long, long time...
Last year, I realized one day how sick of myself I was and at about 167 lbs I got my *** to the gym and started logging my food... I lost 20 lbs in about 6-8 weeks... then I took a vacation, got out of my habits, then when the fall semester commenced, I got "too busy" to work out. I gained all of that weight back, plus the rest...
I just finished this semester (now a year later) and went back to the gym yesterday... and I went again today... and I'll go again tomorrow. I know what it's like to make progress and I want so badly to feel good about myself again...
::sigh::
Ok-- that was long winded, I know... but I wanted to give myself the chance to let some of that out.
Thanks for listening!
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for how you are feeling about yourself right now. 
to help you stick to your new resolve to get healthy again!
