I got busy, stopped eating right, and gained it all back. Now that I'm trying to go back to my good habits, I'm finding that avoiding bad binges is harder, adn I don't know why. The most recent development is the middle of the night bingeing. The dogs wake me up to pee, so while I'm waiting for them to finish, I'm in the kitchen eating whatever I didn't let myself eat before bed. It's usually enough food to be a fourth meal. If they wake me up twice, I eat twice.
I also sometimes go through a drive thru, order way to much food, stuff myself and throw away the rest. I don't eat meat, so it's things like bean burritos, fries, veggie burgers, more fries....Sometimes I even order two drinks (a soda and a bottled water for later) so it doesn't look weird that I'm ordering two meals.
This is a relatively new problem for me and seems to be related to trying to lose weight or other things I don't feel in control of. If I'm procrastinating something and I'm stressed about it, it's even worse. I can tell myself not, but I don't listen. I'm just not sure how to get a handle on this.




Having something healthy on hand would probably help. I do think it's a deprivation thing. Bingeing on a bowl of cut fruit beats two peanut butter sandwiches and half a bag of chips. I always want what I can't have. But if I give myself permission to have a little, like some say, it doesn't work. I still end up eating too much.
I get up often during the night to use the bathroom and that is when I eat. I have the whole house to myself (BF is sleeping) and I just go crazy! I am able to lay down and go right back to sleep but often I raid the kitchen instead. This goes in spurts for me. I will go months without eating in the middle of the night and then BAM!
I will binge at night for weeks until I get a handle on it, and I'm not real sure how I do that. You know I think I fool myself into thinking the calories don't count because it is neither yesterday or today...lol! How is that for stinkin thinkin??? In the moring I act as if it never happened. Am I sick puppy or what?