First off...breathe, just take a deep breath and realize that 4kg's is not the end of the world, nor is it the sum of your parts or of your worth as a person. And losing it as fast as possible, believe it or not, is not your biggest problem at the moment.
I know you're trying to master this (the binge eating, the starving, etc.) and basically wrestle your food issues to the ground but for you and all of us this is more about balance. I have to echo what everyone else has said and suggest that you get help and soon, its sounds like you may be in a spiral but you wouldn't have posted here if you didn't want help. I'm not sure of your location, (I'm in Illinois) but the website something-fishy.org (not sure if its ok to post other sites here, so just in case it gets automatically deleted or something here it is again something dash fishy dot o r g) may be of some assistance. It's a website on eating disorders and it also lists numbers and addresses where you can get treatment. You might even be able to just chat with someone over the phone right now. Please don't let this go any further, just reach out and find a program and/or someone to talk to.
Good luck, sweetie.
And one last thing, If you have friends that you fear triggering, another bit of advice I have is to branch out and make new friends, healthy ones. For your benefit as well as theirs.
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