Good Morning 146.0 New Low
One thing I have seen with my scale is it has a memory so it seems and I have to pick up something heavy when my weight "holds" and reweigh after I put it down.
Yesterday 994 calories, 16,355 steps
Today. You know. Not sure. Not planned. My husband and I are going to get out on our kayaks. I think "outside" even though it will be a bit of a cooler windy day will be good for me.
This issue with my team. No, I feel I let the team down and have things inside of me I am struggling with. Part of it was because a teammate who was being challenged by leadership about some long standing personality issues (nothing of a moral or criminal fiber, but he got very defensive and tried to throw me under the bus to protect himself instead of doing the one thing I begged of him. To simply listen and not react) - I told him I was hurt by his behavior, felt I could not trust him as I felt that if something ever did happen on a call he would try to shift the blame off of himself to another, and that I would no longer mentor him in a specific discipline and I currently am the only person doing that discipline. I just could not take it anymore. I feel fully responsible for letting the team down in that regard as he is an excellent dog handler and he resigned last night. I would have been willing to work with him in a team construct and be amicable; I just could not mentor him one on one anymore. I am not in trouble with the team but I know over the next time there will be a lot of questions and I will be doing a lot of praying. Honestly, I am burned out and ready to retire from it and only staying because I am needed in that one discipline.
Then the neighbor with the dog who bit me. Is demanding I be removed from the HOA board. Well the board sees it for what it is. They have no plans to remove me but I think she may be planning to raise a ruckus at the annual meeting of the community. I don't need more drama right now. Honestly, I had already hoped to step down as it has been 3 years and I tried to step down last year but nobody else volunteered to serve. This year, I found a replacement and was planning on rolling off anyway. No hard feelings between me and any one else in the neighborhood and many have thanked me for being the first person to report the dog. The fact that I turned in her dog to animal control after the dog bit me, then the dog got loose and tore up another dog, then repeatedly got loose and terrorized the neighborhood, the got seized and put to sleep is not my fault. She is just fixated on the whole thing and I think when something goes bad in her life I become her new target. I have been doing all I can to not escalate things with her by avoiding her. She is mentally unstable.
Well, work is going fine. Family relationships are going fine and my DD and SIL have both lost about 20lbs doing my diet and are so happy with how healthy it is!
Nancy - I think Jendiet may be onto something I do know that for me, there seems to be a sweet point and when net calories get too low the body does not want to let go the weight. I think the "starvation mode" theory is a total myth but It does seem
for me the optimal place to lose is around 1200 calories and, yes, lower on the carbs.
Jendiet - I am not sure I could have survived sons though getting girls through teenage years was a whole 'nother experience though the same could be said for boys. My zinc is kind of low. It is also good for the immune system. Ok. Eggs for breakfast! Since DH and I are off today maybe we can go to "our" breakfast place
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Duranchoa - I am glad the optifast is working well for you and hope for resolution with the fibromyalgia. Do you take anything for the pain? I take gabapentin (very low dose of 200mg) for nerve pain from foot damage and it also helps my RLS. I gather Lyrica is supposedly very good for the fibromyalgia (it is related to gabapentin) but I don't know. I need to make time to do that kind of clean up as there is a lot of clutter in our lives.