Hello everyone.
Thank you so much. It's been really rough. I'm glad I have you all here.
Love you guys
We had her celebration of life gathering on Jan 28th, and are going to spread her ashes on the weekend of Feb 24th. I miss her dearly, and continue to struggle
quite a bit
I've set up appointments to see my therapist weekly, I've been doing a lot of journaling, reading a daily grief recovery meditation book, I see my psychiatrist soon, etc. I have
definitely struggled, though, with depressive and hypomanic episodes, anxiety and OCD stuff (I have Bipolar2 Disorder, GAD & OCD, and a couple of other diagnoses...)
My sleep is all
messed up, for the first 11 days after her passing I was only sleeping approximately 3 hours a night, and I kind of went off my rocker a bit. My sleep is bouncing around now, for a couple of nights I'll get solid 6-8 hours of sleep, then it's back to just a few, and then back again
My wife has been
very supportive, but it's also been hard on that front bc I'm an introvert and she's an extrovert, and we deal/cope with things in very different manners on that respect. Plus, considering I was the only child, everything is falling on me (all the red-tape stuff, which believe it or not is a lot, especially for someone who in her life didn't have much. I'm actually having to go to probate court soon, and that's just the tip of the iceberg.)
I'm also
very much struggling at work... I am a counselor, actually, by profession, and it's not the work it self that I'm struggling with - it's just keeping up in general
Lastly, my eating has been
out of control for the last 2 weeks. Prior to my mom dying, I had broken out of my weight loss plateau and lost 6 pounds on Weight Watchers... Then she passed away, and I've been binge eating for 2 weeks. I'm frustrated and disappointed with that.
Anyway, I wanted to stop by and give an update.
Thank you all again for all of your love and support.
I'll be back soon