Laurie Laurie-- 193
That is fantastic and you are moving along through the 190s at an excellent clip. Hope you feel better soon. Handy to have a cold on Halloween, though, if you want to look on the bright side.
Diane Hope your weekend is going well.
Jessica Glad to have you back with such a long post. I definitely think J wanting you to meet his daughter is a good sign. And as for your friend... these things work on their own timetable and it's different for every couple. If it works, it works!
Toasted I love that you are able to refer to Halloween's "wonderful themed candy..."
I tend to think of candy as the devil! With soreness and TOM you are certainly prepping for a WHOOSH!
Mandy Mandy, I love reading your posts. You sound so happy and settled and instead of this move throwing things off and making it hard for you (which is what happened to me back in 2010) you are cruising right along! Boo on the non-thawed meat, but I'm so happy you and hubby got to go out to dinner. And your new avatar is gorgeous!
MissLoud I do not do well with deadlines either! But you are down 2.5! So that is excellent.
Martini I don't want to speak for
Laurie, but I NEVER find your opinions to be unwanted or awkward. You always have the most reflective things to say! I was a little embarrassed at myself for thinking that trainer boy's comment was complimentary.... it's so complicated to know how to process the increased attention that comes with weight loss. Regarding sitting with the feeling, can I ask you a question? Do you ever get to the point that the extra eating gets going without your brain even kicking in to suggest that it might be a bad idea? It seems like I have 3 modes. One= I'm in control. Two=I'm struggling and using techniques to try to manage Three=I'm careening down a steep in hill in an out-of-control car and not only do I not find the brake pedal, I forget I'm even supposed to look for it! Ugh.
So, for me.
So, here is how things are going for Uber. Friday morning, I stepped on the scale and saw 249, a scale bounce of 3 lbs, probably salt-related or just plain random. I realized that it was the last day of October. Since my TOTAL loss for October was only 3 lbs, the scale bounce ERASED my loss and left me back at my Sept. 30th weight. So, I was bummed, but philosophical. I had a really busy day with Halloween activities at my kid's school, so I planned to eat lunch early before i left, but I ran out of time, and so I ended up grabbing a baggie full of this chip and nut mix that my oldest bought at Costco. Now, that was a SUPER STUPID idea because I had already had several binging episodes with those same stupid crackers. So why I didn't throw the hooker away instead of leaving it in the cupboard I'll never know. So, now, I decide it's a good idea to eat a baggie of the snack in the car instead of lunch. UBER??? Are you kidding???? 1. I had already binged on this stuff-- trigger. 2. eating in the car-- trigger. 3. Eating snack junk food in the car that I've already binged on =UBER TRIGGER. I justify this to myself by saying that the not-very-satisfying snack will serve as lunch. I run the Halloween party, which involves candy, but nothing sitting out to eat. I leave school at 3 pm and eat the ENTIRE leftover bag of craft popcorn on the way home and then dig into the rest of the craft candy corn. I would like to say it's because I'm starving, but honestly, I'm not actually very hungry when I get started. This combo makes me feel totally sick! I tell myself that I'm done for the day, but then I end up eating 3 pieces of pizza for dinner. Now, even so, I would have probably been sort of weirdly okay as baggie snack, plus low-cal popcorn in vast quantities, plus a little bit of candy corn plus 3 pieces of pizza was still not crazily high in calories, even if not very satisfying and gross, but because it was such an off, weird, out-of-control bunch of food choices, I decided to do a late night post dinner binge-- ate MORE of the snack junk of the baggie incident, and then topped it off with vanilla ice cream. Went to bed with a horrible stomach ache. Yesterday, started out the day with a normal on plan breakfast, by mid-afternoon, I've ripped open the last bag of craft popcorn (I hadn't realized there was one left) and eaten the whole thing... during the entire time I give only the idlest contemplation to the idea that maybe this is all not a good idea.
So, for this week, I'm really going to work on doing the things I know actually help me lose weight faster.
1. Stick with protein and veggies for one week.
2. Do two 800 calorie fast days.
3. Make a meal plan for the whole week. (I usually plan a bit on the fly)
This morning, after my two-day off-plan extravaganza scale is still showing 249. I want to shed the popcorn and salt bloat, and see if I can drop below 246. I know with Thanksgiving coming up it will be harder to really buckle down, so I'm going to commit to working it to the best of my ability for the next 3 weeks and see if I can FINALLY make that hooker of a scale move for good.