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I hope your day was relaxing and fun for you.
BlueDogWeed sorry to hear others are bringing so much temptation into the house. My boyfriend brings homes sweets a lot too, but we've come to a compromise in that he doesn't bring home, or buy, sweets that I like. Luckily I'm a picky eater (I don't like most nuts, pretzels, french fries, potato chips, as some examples) so that's not entirely difficult for him to do.. definitely feel for you though. Stay strong! Maybe have a talk with the hubby about acceptable foods if you haven't already.
I haven't been on the computer a lot today. I actually took the day off work because I've been having a little bit of an emotional breakdown. Part of it has to do with weight, part of it has to do with just.. me. My sister's wedding is coming up, and it's really hitting home because Saturday we fly out for Washington, where it will be. My sister sent out wedding plans today, and that sort of solidified things in my mind. I've never been a girly girl. I don't wear make-up, I do usually wear dresses, I don't own a curling iron, or a hair dryer (my hair is naturally straight with a slight curl at the bottom.. I'm lucky, I know), I don't wear jewelry for the most part.. and it's occurring to me that I need to be a girly girly for the wedding.
She's providing jewelry, so thankfully I don't have to worry about that. One of her friends will be doing make-up, complete with fake eye-lashes, which I've never wore. I'm suppose to be providing foundation, mascara, and eye-liner, but I don't even know what my foundation should be. The foundation I have is probably around 5 years old, I'm not even sure that it'd pass for a good foundation. Originally she had said someone would be there to help with hair, but now she's getting hers professionally done, so I'm scrambling to find someone to do that too, in an area I'm unfamiliar with. I'm medicated for anxiety/depression, so that definitely isn't really helping.. and I don't want to bother my sister cause she's the bride and I know she's stressed as is so I haven't voiced any of my concerns to her. I'm just so afraid of ruining the wedding pictures or something. I was afraid of that before, since I'm the fat bridesmaid and all.. but now thinking about all the other factors too I'm getting more and more scared, and stressed, as the event gets closer.
So far I've been good about sticking to the diet with the stress. At home I have personal time where I can add up my weight watchers points, even for non approved food, and keep an excel sheet and all. I won't have that for the week I'm gone, so I'm also worried I'll go way off course. My dad is a Mississippi cook, and he's the one that will be providing the meals, which tend not to be on the healthy side of things. He gets offended if you don't eat the food he makes too :/