Thank you all.
ArticMama, sometimes I like to think I'm all better, but truthfully I'm not. I have been keeping a calorie count for the day(900), except dinner. The idea was that if I can't "count" dinner, I can't get so crazy that I'm removing a carrot piece because it puts me over by 3 calories for that day, because I get that insane about it. But I cook only healthy, low cal version dinners, and I must follow portion recommendations (and aim for about 400-500cals estimated. But being a calorie veteran, I know my dinners haven't been making that amount lately.
I noticed the past day or two I feel drained, and yesterday I felt too drained to run, I just walked on the treadmill and I barely felt enough energy to do that...I know this feeling, BTDT, and I know I have been cutting back on my daily cals (700-800)because I'm starting to think I'm eating too much at dinner. And of course, cutting back at dinner.
John, I think you are right. I don't think I'm eating enough. Actually running has helped me in the past with relieving some guilt with "eating too much" (i.e. healthy amount) when I start undereating, because I think of it as fueling my body so I can run. I know in the past that my runs suffer within a few days of restricting intake too much.
Daimere &
MrsSnark, thank you for the encouragement!
Its kind of crazy but my binging balanced out my undereating. Actually I binged more, since I usually maintain about 160 lbs which is still overweight (the high weights are all pregnancy gains, a time when I did not restrict at all). In the past when I remove sugar/processed foods from my diet, after about a week, my urge to binge decreases drastically. I've been away from sugar etc for about 3 weeks now, but for the first week I didn't count cals just focused on breaking the sugar addiction. I supposed if I continued to eat less and less, I would want to binge for simple caloric needs, but I'm going to address this now.
Articmama, I do need to step away from the scale. It seems so simple, but everday I weigh. I'm going to start small. I think I will weigh every other day, then every 3 days and so on. I did weigh today, still stuck at the same weight, but I'm going to focus on eating enough (healthy whole food of course) and my small goal is not to weigh tomorrow.
Thank you all. This website has been the main sourse of recovery for me for many years. I dont know what I'd do without you all.
And
John, I see that ad often too!! There's usually a banana picture, but I've never clicked it...I wonder what the other 4 foods are?? lol