What I mean is, what I wear and how I present myself has absolutely no relation to my interests, tastes or how I see myself.
From years of being very, very overweight and depressed about it, I never bothered to cultivate much style at this size. You know the drill. Walk into Kohl's, Fashion Bug, or Lane Bryant. Look around. Bypass the Tinkerbell stuff and the brown t-shirts emblazoned with gold lamé dragons. Find the least worst thing that sort of fits, and get out of there as soon as possible.
So I end up dressing a lot like this:
When I would rather look more like this:
Now, there is nothing wrong with the outfit on the top; I know that a lot of people dress conservatively on purpose or out of necessity. And I also know that a shirt is not the only thing keeping me from looking like the lovely Simone Simons there.
When I first got big, I didn't really know how to shop for things that were my taste that would fit well. And truth be told, I had a lot of denial and I used to grab things in a hurry because I never truly believed I would be staying that size for long. Now I'm looking forward to buying stuff I actually like. I have almost no clothing left except for workout clothes, because I wear scrubs at work that are provided by the hospital. I have a certain goal weight in mind to start buying clothes again because I know that the things I like will be available in my size.
So, do any other chicks or dudes feel this way. Has your size caused a disconnect in how you see yourself and how you present yourself? What is your style inspiration going forward, and how do you plan to switch your mode of dress from what you have now to what you want?