We've talked about sabotagers, but do you have anyone is your life that you strongly supect is rooting for you to fail? Someone that you believe gets a little joyful inside when you dont lose or if you gain anything back..or is a little disappointed if you've (noticably) lost weight?
I mentioned this on another thread. I have a cousin that I strongly believe does not like to see me successful at weightloss. I of course cant be 100% sure, but many years of silent competition, with me always being the "thinner" one even when I'm not thin, I think has left her feeling insecure and frustrated with me.
Only she had a baby a year ago, where as I just had one. So she has been working on losing weight for about a year (or less, she may not have started right away). I have been working on it for about a month.
I *think* that I am bigger that her right now, which would be a first ever in our lives. Hubby assures me that despite being back at my biggest weight and post pregnancy, that I am not bigger than her, but I dont know, I think he's being kind...
Anyway, I sense this unspoken "HA HA" from her when we have seen each other recently, since again, after years of her being bigger, she is now smaller. (Not by much. I'm a size 18, and I think she's about a 16, so its not a huge difference)
I know I will not stay this big, this is not my non pregnant set point, 160lbs is....but I still feel a pressure to get the weight off, simply because I feel she is rooting for me to fail. I feel that she secretly hopes this will be the time I dont lose, that my new set point, my new comfort weight will be 200+ and even more so that I will never ever get back to my awesome body I had prebaby because of running where I weighed 145lbs.
Anyone else experience this?