Ugh! I'm feeling so fed up right now. I started this weightloss journey in June and in 3 months I lost 48 lbs. awesome, right? Yeah-I went from a size 26 to a 20. I'm just about the same size (not weight, but size) that I was when I got married 8 years ago. To loose it I was doing Jillian Michaels 30 day shred 4-5x a week and walk/running on a treadmill 3-4x a week, and eating 1200-1400 calories a day for the most part. I just did my first 5k on thanksgiving-instead of being proud of myself, I'm upset at my time (50:55-actually quite a bit faster than I've ever done 5k on the treadmill and I was jogging on ICE in the race!). I'm just so down on myself right now.
And now? Ugh, I've just been stuck sitting @ 287 for weeks. And it's totally my fault. I just don't feel like I'll ever be able to break past 285, because in the last 8 years and however many weightloss attempts I've never got below that, SO WHY KILL MYSELF TRYING? I'll never be a full 18, let alone a 12 so why bother? Yet, I NEED this. I need to loose the weight so badly. Ugh. I've let off my eating well and had a big break from the gym. I'm back at it now, but it really doesn't matter if I can't get past this mental block, you know? I hate being so big, but it just seems impossible to get smaller. I know people have done it, but I haven't. I don't know if I can.
Please someone encourage me and help me smash through this mental block!