My weightloss battle began again in June of 2002. I went to put on my prettiest summer dress and I could not zip it up. I wanted to stay in bed and cry the rest of the day. But I started watching my portions and by November I had lost almost 30 lbs. Then I idled. Sure I excercised. I think most of you have recognized I like to excercise, I get off on it. Plus my job is quite physically demanding so movement is good. I found my spark again in mid January and the momentum has been building since. I feel that it possible that I wil lose 54 lbs this year, if it takes the whole year to do it. I am losing slower than I ever have in my life and I am gaining muscle.
Still I have a fear of putting what I want on hold to idle a bit longer. Why? Think about what losing this big protective layer of fat means? I am exposed. No more joking about the fat girl. No more taking it on the chin and thinking of when.
So I am ready and willing and asking freely of your support. This challenge is up to me, but I want the truth and if it appears to you I have hit idle mode again. Yell it at me! If you can take the truth I will give it back. This is my promise.
Have a beautiful day!
Miss Chris