I'm new to posting but have been lurking for a few days. And as it states it the title, I'm afraid to take a starting weight. Yes, I feel that I need to lose weight before actually seeing a number! (Am I the only person who's like this?)
For a couple weeks I've been trying to get a handle on what that number could be. I've been trying to lose weight with some seriousness since August and really buckled down at the beginning of November when I joined a gym. I've done at least 30 minutes of moderate or interval intensity cardio nearly every day plus strength training (also nearly every day) for the last 6 weeks. My calorie counting isn't the best, but I try stay under 1500 with the range being 1200-1800 per day.
About how much do you think I currently weigh? This seems like a ridiculous question to ask, but I've had very negative experiences with the scale before. I need to be prepared so I don't freak out. So why do I care now? I need to schedule a doctor's appointment to (hopefully) get an IUD and want to be able to record a weight I'm not ashamed to admit. I'm also just 3 short weeks from my birthday and need to renew my license. My current license lists my weight as 130 lbs, and I'm determined not to up it.
Current stats
Weight history
Given my current stats, I would hope I don't weigh more than 150lbs (though I'm pretty sure I did at my HW earlier this year). I think the very least I could weigh right now is 130lbs. To give you some weight history, in the 8th grade at 5'1.5" or so I weighed 135lbs and had an amazingly horrific 40% body fat. This prompted some seriously weight loss. By 16 (10th grade) I was about 5'2.5" tall and weighed about 99lbs with 13.5% body fat (size 0-3). I suffered a re-injury and slowly gained back some weigh moving up to around 115lbs post-injury (around 5'3" by that point). By the end of high school, I was ~120lbs at my present height when athletic and about 5lbs more in the off-season (size 5-7).
In adulthood, I have become very weigh-in resistant. In undergrad, my best weight was around 125lbs and I typically wore a size 7. I began to refuse to look at my weight when I went to the doctor's. Once I believe I glimpsed 143 lbs. on my chart which made me feel terrible. A few years ago when I looked at least 10lbs better than I do now, my (now) husband (who knows exactly what he weighs) stepped on the scale with me and calculated me as 129lbs. I hit my HW (not that I know what it is) in 2010. Many of the clothes that had fit me in grad school (mostly 6/8) had become tight or didn't fit at all. The new clothes I was buying were usually 10s (the biggest size I will buy) and a little snug at that. Since I've been dieting and working out, I have begun to start wearing some pants that were uncomfortably tight last year. My grandma (the weight police) has noticed I've been losing, and a very observant security guard at one of the office building I visit ~4 times a year for work said I'd lost "a lot" of weight. (Both of these references are from a couple weeks ago.)
Thanks for indulging my rambling!