Hello, all -
I doubt many of you will remember me - back in '07-'08 I was on here every day; I changed my life and lost 127lbs. It was the best thing I ever did.
Without details or excuses, I have regained a significant amount of weight, and I am unhappy every single day as a result. I HATE that being unhappy about my weight has taken over my life again - I lived this way before, and I can't believe I'm here again. Except... this time there is an added emotion: shame.
I am so ashamed of being a 'failure', a 'statistic' - one of the 80% who regain after losing. There are so many complexities attached to this feeling.
I have been lurking here again for some time, too ashamed to even post this... even as I type, I am cringing. And the saddest thing? I KNOW this shameful feeling is part of what is stopping me losing...
I'm not even really asking a question, I guess. Just wondering if others have dealt with this, overcome the shameful feeling of regaining? It occurs to me that those who haven't overcome these feelings, like me, possibly just don't post anymore.