So I know I can't not calorie count, which is weird considering I lost 2/3s of my weight without it, oh yeah and I maintained weight after my DS was born for a for 6 months without it, but I'm going to try an experiement. I know it's going to be difficult to do, because of how I track my cals, but I'm going to track them BUT not look at the the total. So I will eat the same way I've been eating, but NOT rearrange snacks and meals to "fit" into a certain "limit". I will eat more intuitively and eat my more calorie dense snacks because I'm either hungry or because I'm gearing up for a big run or workout or heck because I want to. I'm hoping this less obsessive, less restrictive way will curb the binging some what.
To be honest, this is the probably the thing I'm going to try before I just, well to be really honest, give up trying "figure" out the whole binging issue and just let it be. If I continue to maintain and still have binging issues on the weekends then who cares right? Sorry, I know that may or may not be the right attitude, but I'm a little irritated with trying to "figure" this out. This weekend has been ok. I didn't binge Friday, but binged a little on Saturday. In the scheme of my binges, Saturdays wasn't too bad and last Friday's binge wasn't too bad. The last two weekends have been limited to one day binges instead of two or three,so maybe I'm making progress. So maybe acceptance is a better path for me.
So anyway, I think it's time for me to find a way to be at peace with my food issues and enjoy life.