I think I have been focusing too much on the negative side of food. Lately, hence my binge of last week.
Things like:
Almost like food has been controlling me, cravings, desires etc.
That I would look at chocolate, cakes and really want them but torture myself with the thought of not having them. They are everywhere you go, shops, work etc
That I would eat chocolate, cakes and them feel guilt and crappy - like I had blown it. So I would eat more and more.
That I would feel anxious about dinner invites out, knowing I would have to wait too long to eat or there would be unsuitable choice on the menu
Now that I am 5 days away and counting from that mad crazy binge (cakes, chocolate, crisps etc) I am feeling in a better mindset about food.
I know I can make healthy choice
I look at chocolates, crisps and its almost like its not food to me and I have no desire to eat it.
I know I can go out and make the healthiest choice on the menu and change the option to make it as good as possible.
Its ok to be hungry, I know I will soon be eating something healthy.
I hope I can say in the positive mindset, it feels so empowering and the need to fill the void with food is gone. I think part of that is I have cut out sugary carbs and filled it with good veggies and protein.
So whats the point of this post? who knows.... but I guess I wanted to share and say start thinking about how you want to feel about food and then work towards it rather than feeling trapped by the current way you are around food. Ehm, I hope that makes sense. Like I say I am on day 5 and I feel strong but maybe I will slip again down the road. But I am only taking it as it comes. I have been hear before and last year I put together a fantastic run before I slipped back.