This is the first post I am posting while walking slowly on my treadmill. I rigged a plastic shelf over the treadmill and propped my laptop on it. I'm loving this! I've walked a 1/4 mile already just playing around on 3FC.
But that's not what this post is about.
Do you have an image of yourself in your head that does not match reality? If so, can you pinpoint why, or when you actually were that person? When did reality start to match your inner you or when do you think it will?
I've always had an image of myself in my head that I carry around with me. It's who I present myself to the world as. But when I'd catch the real me in a picture, I was stunned. (I know many of us experience this phenomenon) Up until a couple weeks ago, this was still happening to me, but to a decreasing degree. I was starting to feel really good about myself in my head, but I'd catch a picture and think...ugh...still not there...really??? I thought I was thinner than that!
Finally just this week or so I've started to look at pictures and I exactly match! Even a bathing suit picture!! My thighs were exactly right! My calves were right, my waist was right! Only my shoulders and breasts are broader than I think they are in my head.
But I realized that inner image I've been carrying around in my head is of me when I became pregnant with our first son. It wasn't a super thin image of me, it wasn't my thinnest in college, or in high school or some unrealistic image of what I wanted to be. It was a very realistic image of me from the last time I was able to accept who I was.
Anyway...that was a profound revelation for me to make. I wonder how often any of us ever come to terms and find a match for that inner image vs. reality. I have finally found peace with mine and it's a little surreal.
Now I'm wondering if the opposite is going to happen as I keep losing and now I'm going to have fatter-than-reality image of myself and really shock myself in pictures! I can live with that!
..I've now walked .6 miles.