Hi everyone,
I started my life change Jan 5/09, so just over a year now. I have done well as of now I've lost 81 lbs. I feel different in many ways but some days have the same old feelings too. I guess I'm trying to find out if there are any people out there who are going through what I've been experiencing. I am not just re-learning how to eat, but how to feel and I had some childhood trauma of abuse that was never really ever dealt with. I'm currently getting some sporatic councilling, which has shown me so much about myself already. But I've honestly been struggling for sometime now, and it's time that I be honest with myself. I lost 60lbs in the first 6 months of last year. Then I struggled with the next 20lbs for the next 6 months. I just want to have a great year ahead to really reach my goals. I need to see under 200lbs to feel like I'm getting close to my goal. I went from 339lbs to now 259lbs. It is an amazing journey but my emotions play such a huge part, and where I was once so dedicated , now I feel like it's torture to work out 6 days a week. I do 3 intense bootcamp classes a week for 1 hr and try to do at least a half an hour on the other days. I know it's a long post, but I'm starting to feel a little hopeless like it will never really happen for me and this is where I'm doomed to stay if not gain it all back. I just don't know how to deal with all the emotional life things that pop up and still do what is right for my body and mind. I've learned so much in this last year but feel I still have so far to go...I know I will only fail if I give up...and don't intend to do that....but would not like to waste another 6 months losing the same pounds over and over, I'd like to see some real progress. Any comments are helpful. Thanks.