Alright ladies I am back.
Sandye ~ Once again, I'm glad your back and on those size ten shorts. You've simply done an amazing job, you should be very proud of yourself.
Tummy ~ You're hilarious! Glad that you are up walking after such a workout yesterday. I hope you have a great day.
Jacqui ~ Hey sweetie. Hope you and the hubby had a great time. Give it a few days then try the scale again.
Glutio ~ I hope you get that stress under control soon.
Well as I was saying earlier, I had an interesting evening. Yes, Tummy, my friend did come over, but it was all quite innocent. In other words, no hanky panky. Which was quite hard. This is probably too much information, but he was actually the last man I was intimate with, *ahem* over a year ago *ahem* so yeah, it was tough. I noticed the day he came to the hospital that all those feelings came back, like he was never gone in the first place, but I just thought that was because I was in a very emotional and in a vulnerable state. Turns out, I definitely still feel something for him, which is why every time I have broken ties with him. I feel it when I am with him and it bugs the crap out of me. It's sooooooooo annoying. It's one of those situations I wish I could have emotionally unattached, hot, sweaty, animal sex...and I know I can't with him, it just doesn't work like that. Urg, so annoying. So yeah, it was nice having him here and shootin' the breeze, and I'm quite annoyed that I didn't let him rock my world, but what can ya do?
So enough of that. I am having a bit of trouble gettin' my groove back ladies and can't for the life of me understand why. Geez it was only five days and it feels like I'm completely off track. I mean I'm not eating off plan or anything, but my mindset simply isn't where it was and my weight, with TOM just leaving and then depriving myself while in the hospital...my body is just acting crazy for some reason. I'm having abnormal fluctuations. So I feel like I'm in limbo and I don't know how to snap myself out of it. Soo, I don't know. I'm not used to being stressed out. I'm your average, optimist that always sees the glass half full ya know? Always laughing and happy. Going from one extreme to the other really drained me I guess and I just feel blah and my energy levels seem depleted. I think I need a challenge or something new...or just something ya know? Urg, help me out ladies. What is wrong with me?