Bonnie I did something kinda similar to that. I didn't do it daily and it wasn't always the same thing but I got more comfortable than I have been in a long time and started to not pick out the carrots on the salads I was getting and I quit measuring my portions. I've grabbed a little piece of candy at work here and there and I've NEVER measured 4 oz of meat since I got on the green menu. I still don't do any traditional working out *hehe* but after my big "screw it" meal 2 weeks ago I've been hungrier. I also started chewing Stride shortly after that so I'm thinking that maybe the gum is like a tease to my stomach, com'on, when ya gonna swallow it, com'on! I don't know but it's about to drive me nuts. The BF is coming over tonight and I told him I wanted to cook for him and he asked for chicken fried steak and the fixins. *sigh* I can't cook w/o tasting because then I won't know if he's lying about how good it is just to save my feelings. I already tasted the potatos *not even a tsp total between all the tastes as I added stuff* and the green beans which don't matter. He's visiting his gramma in the hospital so I'm waiting to start the rest till he gets on his way so it won't get cold but DAMN if I don't want something already. I baked my tilapia last night and didn't butter his green beans so I cld keep what's left of those for my meals. I skipped WI tonight and I'm kinda wishing I hadn't now since I'll have to go tmw night when I get off and the tiny tastes to get it right might throw me off the scales. I think I just barely started losing again.
I think my issue is I'm real money conscious. I have to be cuz it's just me taking care of me you know. I think I've been focusing on my dwindling wardrobe *good feeling* and knowing I can't replace it *bad feeling*, maybe I've been sabotaging myself to save the money. I've been scrimping to get the drinks as well and I HATE scrimping for any reason. I think I'm more uncomfortable with scrimping to make ends meet than eating the menu. I've gone over my budget and out of the optional things I have, the only one left to cut back is how many times a week I go out of town to see my BF and as of yet I'm unwilling to cut back on that. We've been fighting this for 2 years *that's a saga* and now that he's taken this step, I'm not going to waste any time. Too old for that. I really think that's what my deal is. Is that weird?
Use your friends cuz that's what they're there for. It's awesome that you've got someone like that to support you and talk you through it. I just don't happen to know anyone that wld REALLY understand this situation. I'm also real argumentative which is why it's a wonder that my friends put up with me!
See ya in Onederland soon girl!!!