Hello, beautiful ladies! Thank you all for your words about my grandma. I really appreciate it. I'm feeling better today. No one's checked in on me about how she's doing, so I'll take that as a good sign. =/ Usually my sisters are spamming emails.
I had a good night last night. DH came home early yesterday because he knew I was freaking out, and he wanted to help me get my mind off my gma, so we went to the mall because I need some new shirts. I felt good because I've definitely gone down a couple sizes, and I'm smaller than my last weight loss attempt, which was a year ago. With some of the shirts, the 22/24 was too big, but I was too scared to try an 18/20. But I am smaller up top. I didn't try any pants, because I'll just wear a belt with my old ones. I usually need bigger pants because I'm rectangular, meaning my waist is the same size as my thighs, which means I need larger waisted pants but then the thighs gape out monstrously.
I watched an episode of Paul McKenna dealing with cravings. It's really a nutty show. Next time I have a craving, I'll start tapping my face the way he suggests. lol
I like the tactics for slowing down your eating. I'm such an unconscious food shoveler. The other night we went to the salad place for dinner, and usually I'll eat two big plates of salad, but I did the thing where you put your fork down after every bite, and I seriously was full halfway through the first plate. It's a good tactic, I think.
Today I will eat better. DD & I need to go shopping. We are out of raw eggs, but we have a plethora of hardboiled & dyed Easter eggs.
I hate being down. I haven't worked at all on my quilt. =/ My inspiration is totally gone for some reason. I feel like a manic depressive. I do go through creative bursts. It's also hard because my downtime during her nap is spent exercising now, and I can't work on the quilt with DD around because I get really distracted by her, and then when she goes to bed I'm tired and can't focus on doing it.
Wow I'm gonna shut up. I've written a book. Gonna do personals.