Thanks for the congrats (pattin self on back
) To answer your question, How'd I do it. The first element of necessity was making up my mind...and with finality. I do have a journal, and a web site
You can read my
Shedding Weight Loss Journal I need to update it, but I am really busy. The mental issue for me was really hard, because it meant breaking a promise to myself when I was four years old. I was molested, and pornographic magazines were used as a means by which my violator could "justify" my taking off my clothes. I vowed that I would never "look like those women". That was the first thing I had to do. I made the decision that I was not going to allow that to rule the rest of my life. I didn't know how I was going to break out of my fortress of fat, my companion of fear, anxiety, and insecurities. But with the first initial decision to "get healthy", "claim my sexuality" IT'S MINE! and IT Belongs to me. Just as it belongs to every woman and every man. That was liberating. I won't say that it has been easy going....I mean, I literally had a war going on inside me when I would drink my water..I use to take in 8 glasses a year maybe. When I would go on my walks, I had struggles with major anxiety.. a LOT of tears, getting rid of all that anger that has been stored up for YEARS! But, as I would keep pushing up against these walls, the stronger I became, and the weaker the walls or wars became. I felt better and better with each passing month. I have had plateaus, and there was one time that I gained some weight back, during some very emotional times, not sure how much it was, I just new that I couldn't zip my size 16 jeans that I so proudly wore a couple of weeks before. I know I am on the last stretch...I hope that the closer and closer that I get that I won't find myself scared, I worry about that sometimes.
There was a guy at work that kept calling me "sexy"..and after a while, I told him to shut the "****" up. He doesn't even look at me now. So, that kind of attention still bothers me apparently..but hey.. I know that getting my body to it's optimum level of health is going to be AWESOME in the end. I do go into great detail on my web site if your interested. Stop on by. I have pictures in my journal, and there are some pictures of when I was a kid. So, in my opinion...making healthier eating and drinking choices, MOVING that body (even if you have to "sit & be fit" with PBS) and most importantly, MAKING that decision. And you will know it when you have made that choice. Hang in!
Oh, and when I said that I passed pills, I am a medication aide in a nursing home, Lot's of calcium & poop pills
Be good to yourself!
Did you say you were "passing out pills"? Congratulations on that loss. I have lost 50 pounds and it's taken me 11 months to do so. I have 50 more to go myself. Hopefully it won't be long that I can make my "one more to go" statement. Way to go!!!
