Good afternoon ladies!
I feel like I have been gone forever. Ok, it's been 6 days but it seems longer! I have not been doing well with eating, so I have been thinking a lot about why that is... After some mental research, I noticed I fell off WW the day my ex got back in touch with me via email in late January, and haven't been on plan since. Hmmm. It did not improve either after I ran into her at the dance club.
Although I believe it is healthier to not carry bitterness around, or focus on avoiding her out of fear, I think that I still have unresolved feelings of loss that need to be dealt with! I have fallen back into old habits of staying in, not exercising, eating too much, drinking too much. I know inside that I am insulating myself, hiding away, not facing my emotions... and that I need to shake this off and get back into eating well, and get back into exercising. I know this makes a HUGE difference in my mental and physical health!
About my ex... I'm not sure about being friends with her either. We will see how our actual spending time together goes... I have not seen her since that night out dancing, but she has emailed me and been nice... she tried to get me out of a traffic ticket I got, by talking to a top cop friend of hers on the local police force, but unfortunately, he couldn't make it go away, heh! So, I think it is sweet that she is trying to look after me, but I am still very cautious about her.
So, yesterday, after a week of being a slob and leaving papers, dirty dishes, and laundry everywhere, I got up and cleaned everything up. Being surrounded by a mess makes my outlook worse I've noticed... So I feel better to look around and see clean surfaces! Yes, I can actually see the tablecloth on my dining room table, bed is made, etc etc. Heh!
Today I am going to go to the gym, take down my dry-n-crunchy Christmas tree, return some movies, little chores, then call some friends. Can you all believe I STILL have my tree up?! Me neither! I just got so used to it, with all its tiny colored lights and beautiful ornaments. I wish it could have lived forever so I keep it up and look at it adoringly

But it is dropping needles everywhere, and heck, it's been up since mid-December! At least my neighbors up the street still have all their Christmas lawn stuff out, reindeer, Holy Family, Santa, shiny green tinsel through their fence... so I'm not the only lazy one
Ellis, Angi, Miss Chris, Kat, Christy, Jenelle -

I'm sorry I am so behind on all your posts!
Ellis & Miss Chris - Thank you for your continued thoughts

And Miss Chris, your prayers; I think you and God may have pulled me out of this awful funk I have been buried in.
Jenelle - I hope you are feeling better today! I'm sending some virtual chicken soup and tea your way...

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Ok, I'm off to shower, and get my butt to the YMCA! I don't think the front desk will recognize me! Gawd, I have not been there since early OCTOBER! Urgh! I'm not going to go nuts, 30 minutes I think is about my limit after my long fitness vacation
See you all later - be well!