Lucky.... I loved your post. I loved your "I HATE THAT !!" LOL
What I did
not love was this quote...
Quote:
do I want to stay hiding, safely in this fat?
What a eye opening statement for me.
"Hiding .... Safely ... in this fat."
First thing it made me realize is.... I can't hide in this fat. It is out there for everyone to see on me. I can live in denial about it... but hiding is not an option. Even if I hide away in my house... the time comes I have to be seen.
And the term "safely" and "in this fat" is such a ... a ... what is the term ??
Lie ? Joke? False statement?
There is nothing safe about my fat. It is totally unsafe.
Not only physically ... but emotionally too. I suffer from depression, low self esteem, denial, fear of rejection and worst of all HOPELESSNESS .... the list goes on and on when I am into the food. My obesity is not safe. Even if I try to convince myself otherwise.... when I try to hide from life because of my obesity I am not "safely" tucked away. I am in more danger of physical, emotional, and spiritual decay than ever.
This is not a criticism of your post... I hope you know that.
It is an awakening to the lies I tell myself.
What I want to say is.... No matter how hard it is to keep trying...
It is worth it !!! Just one day on program improves my self worth.
Just one day of ON PROGRAM makes me stronger.
And I promise... two or three days changes your life.
And Thin...
WILLINGNESS
Wow .. what a POWERFUL word.
Willing to change.
Willing to let go of your old familar ways for new. It is so much easier to hang onto our old habits. But as they say..." If you keep doing the same thing.. you will keep getting the same results. "
WILLING to change.
I have changed some of my old habits the past few days.
In the past... if I bought gas.. I bought a diet drink too. Not anymore.
In the past... if someone offered me a free sample I took it. Not anymore.
In the past... if I went to the movies I ALWAYS got popcorn. Not anymore.
In the past... if we ate out I got a tea or diet pop. Not anymore.
Those are minor changes... BUT ... they are changes for the positive.
Just as a baby takes baby steps before learning to walk.. and learning to walk before learning to run... I am learning to change.
Another word that is equal to "willingness" and that is "COMMITMENT".
And I am not talking about being commited to the insane asylum.

LOL
I am talking about being COMMITED to a baby step. My baby steps are caffeine free. Sugar Free. My commitment is to NOT eat foods high in carbs.
If you found a program that is right for you....
COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS AND BECOME WILLING TO COMMIT TO IT !!!
Okay.. I am getting off my soapbox... and taping my mouth.
Sometimes my enthusiasm comes across as pushy or bossy and I don't mean it to. I am just wanting to share what I know helps me. .. and hope it will help you too.
I have to laugh.. I act like I have found the magic solution.

LOL
I have not. But hopefully if I talk about what is working for me instead of what I do wrong... the rights will increase and the wrongs will decrease.
That is another way I make my changes easier to do. I talk about the things I am doing right. A favorite quote of mine is....
"If you focus on the problem... the problem increases.
If you focus on the solution ... the solution increases.
The choice is yours what you put your focus into"