I used to love my face. Even after I gained the weight I still got the "oh your face is gorgeous" crap. Nobody thinks that anymore, I can't even trick myself into thinking that anymore. And while I realize that not everyone can be pretty, I am to the point where I hate my face. I just want to cover up all the mirrors in the house. I don't know why this last week has been so hard on me, mainly about stuff I never really cared about before but now all of a sudden I do. I looked in one of the mirrors at the grocery store the other today and I wanted to go home right that instant. I almost started crying in the middle of the store. My ocd kicked in and I started counting over and over and then doing my reverse alphabetical order.
I just feel like I am never going to like myself. It doesn't matter if I am 110 lbs or 350lbs.

