About 40 lbs of this is recent weight gain from a summer filled with me giving up on caring about a lot of things, my appearance being one of them. I had a new years resolution (like most ^^;
and I ended up just stopping. I've always been overweight, and have always been really self-conscious of it. However, I've always managed to feel like I look good, now I'm just at a point where I don't really feel good in anything I put on. It's hard to say but, my fat jeans... are now the jeans that barely button. I went from a size 16 up to a size 20. My goal is to reach 135 lbs, I know that's something that'll take awhile to reach, but I don't think I've been more ready in my life.
I also met someone, online, who I have very much fallen for. He's planning on meeting me, but that self-conscious part inside of me is telling me once he actually see's me in person he'll stop caring. I know most of it is me, but.. I suppose how can I expect someone to love and be comfortable with what see if I'm so obviously not?
I'm aiming to sound determined! I hope I don't come off as a downer. XD <3
- Mei
Determination and commitment is what it takes! Sound like you have it!! Go for it!
It sounds like you are committed and that is awesome! Good luck on your journey, you have come to the right place