I have never been part of an online community, but there is a first time for everything right? As a recovering binge-eater I need all the support I can get!
During the last 4-5 years I have developed an unhealthy relationship with food. Since moving out of my parents' house and living with my boyfriend, I increasingly started turning to food to cover up my true feelings. It didn't matter whether I was feeling inadequate, stressed or lonely, I would stuff my face with loaves of bread, yogurt, sugar, apples, bananas, nuts, oatmeal.
I thought that one could not binge on healthy foods, but I would fool myself into thinking one apple/slice of bread can't hurt. Then I would slip into this "other world" where the only thing that mattered was what I would eat next.
My mom is obese and I do not want to turn into her.
So, as of late I have been sticking to three meals per day. Today is my third day and I am committed to making this last. My binge-starve cycles only make me more lonely and sad. I am too young to hide behind food for the rest of my live!
Right now I am sticking to a serving size of oatmeal for breakfast, salads with some healthy fats for lunch and eating dinner with my boyfriend. Right now I am too scared to have fruit in the house, because they often started my binge....
I am 132 lbs right now and would like to get to 115 lbs. My main focus is however to stop this horrible behavior.
I'm just like you, I've never really been in an online community either, I just lurk a lot because I'm shy 
