I know that's technically still in my maintenance range, but it's close to the bad side of it. I'm much comfier at 125-127lbs. And I can easily maintain that...that's the weight my body settled at when I was trying to find my maintenance calories. I maintained it for months. Even with daily fluctuations throughout my cycle, I would hover at 125-127. It was easy and comfortable to maintain, I was satisfied with the food, exercised moderately, and even had planned treats. It's not like I was desperately trying to maintain as low as possible.
Welllll, life happened. Graduated college, got married, and moved to a new state within a month. My whole schedule and routine was thrown out of whack. In the process of trying to get back on track, I went through a yucky period of binges and restriction. I went up from 125-127 to 130-132. NOT a significant gain, I know, but a gain nonetheless.
Well I've snapped myself out of that nasty pattern, and I've been eating beautifully on plan. I've been eating on the low end of my calories because I want to lose those few pounds. Upped my exercise a bit. My weight is slooooowly drifting back down to where I want it to be. Between fluctuations, I'd say I've been averaging 128.5-ish. And then today was just annoying at 129.8...psh, what a slap in the face, lol.
I know it's a very insignificant amount, I get that. And I don't believe in defining myself by a number either. I'm the same Megan at 129.8lbs as I am at 125lbs. I think why I'm so impatient to get rid of those few pounds is because they represent the fact that I GAINED weight while I was binging. That's maddening. I don't want to be reminded every morning that I screwed up for a month.
Anyways, just had to vent
Hopefully I'll see a post-TOM whoosh in a few days.
