I'm so irritated right now. I have really bad allergies, and year-round hayfever, as well as chronic idiopathic urticaria (fancy way to say i get hives and the doctors don't know why). I take medicine to keep my symptoms under control, so that I can get things done, and they work well. I noticed that, while family was here, someone stole a considerable amount of my pills. I was left with ten, which I used sparingly until we had the money to get more. It's been an entire week without any pills. My eyes burn, are scratchy, and swollen from the rubbing and itching. My nose is both runny and stuffy, and rubbed raw from blowing it. I can only breathe through my nose.
My mom ordered some pills through the internet, about 4-5 days ago, and I hope they get here today/tomorrow, because if not... all **** is about to break loose.
I finally said eff it and took a bath the other day, by the time I was halfway through my upper trunk had 3 or 4 decent sized hives, so I decided to skip washing my hair. Big mistake, because I need to be somewhere sunday, and I need to be bathed and not have eyes the size of golf balls. I need to be able to wash my hair so that I can have my hair cut, and I need to be able to look human so I can flirt with this guy, and yes it's very important to me because I want to show him that I've been losing weight (since he used to be heavy too).
I'm irritated with my parents, because if my sister wants something, BAM, they go out and get it. Something trivial she can do without. But when I'm itchy and sneezy and absolutely miserable, I have to wait and wait and wait, even when I've offered to pay for the pills myself. My family is just so damn lazy. I could go up to the store myself if I had a license, or if I had a friend who lived near by that I could drive with since I have my permit, but I have literally 1 friend since high school and she lives a ways away, too far to accompany me to the store.
My mom's trying to get me to try another allergy pill- I've only found one that works, and I want THAT one. I don't want to test something new out- I want to be able to shower and wash my hair without being covered in hives, with a medicine I know and trust because it WORKS! On top of that my scalp is so itchy because I haven't been able to wash it, and I feel hideous and gross, and I'm dreading having to take another bath/a shower without these pills.
I'm just so #$$#ing annoyed, and everyone is getting mad at me becuase I keep complaining, so I...brought it here. I know I'm an adult, I know I should take care of myself and I know it's my fault and that I shouldn't rely on mommy to get me my medicine.... I'm just so miserable... ugh. And there's not much you guys can say, I guess, so I guess this is just a vent. :/



