But how come when you (in general) lose 10 pounds it doesn't show? Are the numbers lying? Short answer is no, but I feel like they are. I've lost 10 pounds since I started but I haven't seen any change yet and it's getting me very discouraged. I can't get past the fact that being in the 190's again makes me happy, yet so sad. Where did I go wrong? How did I let my life get this out of control? Numbers. That's how. I ate too many calories and didn't burn off enough.
I'm on day 14 of Phase 1 and I believe I will continue on it for a week or so. I don't know if I will be happy until I lose a pants size, then the numbers won't seem like they are lying anymore. Maybe I have driven my self esteem so far down after adding over 80 pounds to my small/medium bone structure that nothing will bring it back up, not even losing 10 pounds in 2 weeks.
I need some encouragement. I need not the praise for losing 10 pounds but the ambition to lose more and more so I can finally prove to myself that the scale is not lying.
I have to keep my chin up, straighten my posture and reach out my hand so that I can again have faith in numbers through you, my support group.




