Coaches
I've read my ARC's today and needed to. My weight, though it is just a number my arc tells me, is 271 this morning, a weight change of +1.2 Reasons? Same as yesterday: salt intake from takeout food and fluid/hormones. While the bodily processes are a mystery to me and I am along for the ride as I always am, the salt intake will be lower today and the water intake will be upped. I will
persist in victory d@mn it 
and
not eat whatever which is what the sabotaging critic would have me do.
I tangled with two bouts of unbridled eating yesterday. When I get super-puffed up with hormonal shifts and such I feel so awful and when I "feel so awful" I ALWAYS turn to food to "feel better" or if I don't think that I turn to food to "make myself feel better" or alternately "I already feel physically so bad and uncomfortable eating lots will make me happy and I can't feel worse physically anyway". Some rationale! I don't even assume I will feel better if ____ cause the way it is, it just has to pass, but I am eager almost to take advantage of feeling bad as an excuse or permission or a reason to eat whatever I want. THIS is an old extremely harmful pattern. I will be writing my first cheat on this today.
my official credits: weighed myself once, yesterday and today; left food on my plate; did not eat in between meals; did not have seconds; had spontaneous exercise; checked in with my coaches/buddies; tried to eat slowly and consciously; read my arc cards;
Yesterday's challenges were: calming down before my food; recognizing it take 20 min to feel full; had a spoonful of crap standing up-but only one then I sat down (1/2 credit here); did not wait to feel full instead ate something else right away as I didn't feel "full enough" - was not hunger but desire I gave in to.
Billblueeyes you asked this of
RobinWQuote:
Robin (RobinW) - Will you kindly, and discreetly of course, tell me whether it's more proper tomorrow to wish our Ontario friends on this thread, "Happy August Civic Holiday" or "Joyous August Civic Holiday?" I want to get it right and not sound like, well, an uninformed American who is clueless to the nuances of the Great North. Will you be celebrating it yourself, cooking the traditional "Civic Holiday" dishes so that your DD retains the culture?
BBE the best thing you could say to me is "happy last day off before Fall or before Labour Day". It's pretty much how I think of it. Of course I keep hearing of everyone "going up to the cottage" as if everyone has a cottage to "go up to". I never have had one of those. (I'll add the word
sadly here.)
AS for the future fortunes of journalism, you know what i really fear? That we will all know what's happening in some weird dramatic celebrity event in Sweden or something and we will not know that the local politician is absconding with the funds for the new highway or something. the focus on the odd, interesting, glamorous worldwide event/celebrity/atrocious criminal monster eclipses the ordinary local everyday unglamourous everyday bits of life that as ordinary everyday citizens we actually have to deal with be it roads/transit/sewers/flooding in the basements etc. and with the local media gone who will be watching and reporting this stuff? they say bloggers but who has the time to dig into the story? To spend the money to follow the trails? To do a story when people go "oh yeah that. of course politicians are idiots and they spend money stupidly and...who cares?" I don't know. it really worries me. That this city editor could not be bothered to know exactly what we did and who we are and when it happened and why when it's all there before he emailed me is unexcusable to me. Why would I treat him like a professional? because I have manners is why...but YOU know how I feel. I just told you. The old saying
the devil is in the details can be applied to local vs global interests. We may be interested in Paris Hilton or China or the Middle East and we may be affected as we were with the goings on of Wall Street and mortgages and banks but how did it manifest? Locally. My neighbourhood is going downhill cause they can't sell a house or get a mortgage or my factory closed down and I can't work so I can't buy that loaf of bread at your grocery store or pay more for organic carrots from my local farmer. The local is really important. Ugh. Sorry. I'd erase all that but I won't... I'll just, again do this
OFF.
eusebiusThank you for mentioning the memotome.com site. I will check into it. Credit for the maintaining 4lbs!
RobinW methinks refocusing is what we always have to do to deal with weight issues...sometimes more re-focusing, sometimes less. Credit for knowing this and I am so glad you are here with us
Walking Princess 
You deserve A LOT of credits my friend. You said
Quote:
Why couldn't I just stick to my normal weekday routine?
Hello? Because it WASN'T either a week day OR a normal routine. It was a celebration and a holiday and a weekend. ALL challenges. You did great! Dr. Beck wants us to give ourselves credit for EVERY change in behaviour you did the ALL of the following: left food, packaged food up and didn't eat it, gave food away, budgeted for bigger meals by eating less earlier, stayed conscious of your food choices. Although you didn't see yourself being
perfect if you take a look at what you've done so far it is great. We are all works in the making. We never really get there ever, eat perfectly I mean. But you have taken so many steps. Just keep going. You are absolutely "getting it".

<---- I give you this because I want you to see that I mean it!
Nuxmaga Credit on being 1000 steps over your daily walking goal, being OP, and on leaving half a roll.
wndranne Credit for taking action. I am reminded of a time when I was in heavy duty therapy and was told that the best place to practice relationship issues is by being in a relationship.

I think this is the same. We need to be in it, doing it, in order to create the situations that push us forward and make us face our own selves and our choices... yay for finding the energy to do so.
ChinaMaine Credit for all that walking! And a question, did you get any pictures of those rebar animal sculptures? If not, can you send me a link to where I might search them out?? Thanks!

to everyone - have a good Sunday.
UPDATE at 11pm: Had a tough time today with taste-testing at the stove. I did it several times, once even taking a big enough hunk of stuff to make me go "oh come on. If you're going to eat that at least go sit down then" and so I did, for the second it took me to eat it then I went back to the stove. From here I fell into the "I don't care" sabotaging thought pattern. I resisted, but weakly. This was the worst of it today for me. I felt frustrated most of the day and that's never good.