Hi, Amazing Turtles,
You all are so amazing, I just had to tell you. Thanks for all of your prayers. They are appreciated more than you could ever guess. The little icon is me singing with Christmas CD's, since I couldn't do my choir singing this year. Doesn't it look like one of those angels or choir singer statues they sell everywhere as Christmas decorations?
Woo Hoo! Lauren, you officially met your goal, a whole week early, and during the holidays at that. Congratulations! It's amazing how connected we get to people we've been rooting for. I feel as glad as if it were me who is below 200! Congrats!
Mousie, wow! You are amazing! You dealt with your disappointment so well! And you didn't eat it out, you found a positive way of managing what happened. I love that you recorded yourself playing and heard the music that you made.
Billy Joel does talks at colleges and A&E broadcast one a few weeks ago. He said that everyone makes mistakes. All the time. No matter how good you are. That's true. And, he said, it doesn't matter.
I once heard a woman play The Entertainer, the ragtime piece that was made so popular in the movie, The Sting. Technically, she was marvelous. But there wasn't any soul to the music. It sounded like a student exercise. It was boring. She played it like there was a metronome ticking, but rag needs to swing.
You should hear my son play it. He was born with music in his soul. When he was about 14 and just starting to learn the piano, he listened and listened to the recording and memorized the piece. And when he plays, he puts that woman's performance to shame. She had years of lessons and performance coaching and all that stuff, but he has the music in his soul.
On the TV show, MASH, the character of Charles Winchester was talking with a pianist who had lost his right hand or arm. He was playing the concerto for left hand (I don't remember the composer) and Charles told him that he had more to give in his left hand than Charles had in his whole body. Charles said that no matter how much he practiced, he couldn't make it music.
That's what you did--made it music and the mistakes don't matter. You must have the music in your soul, too. Keep going. Do it because you love it. That's what I do, even though I'm far from a great musician. I do it for the love of it.
Congrats on doing well enough in OChem. You'll get through finals and be ready to celebrate Christmas. I always hated that finals and Christmas coincided. It made it hard to do justice to either one. Here's a {hug} from me, too.
Judy, it sounds like you were the victim of one of those people who mistakes hurtful comments for friendly banter. You need a {hug}, too.
My dad was like that and he taught it to my brothers. One of them doesn't act that way anymore, but the other has a vicious tongue. I ignore what he says and it doesn't hurt anymore because I know it's about him, not me. But it sure did hurt when I was a kid and a teen and was told I was "too sensitive and couldn't take a joke." It's really hard to have your feelings discounted because you end up stuffing them down and doing something else, overeating, in my case. Some people turn to alcohol or drugs.
Your plan to wait until the new year to start exercising is a good one. Right now, if you're like everyone else, you have enough going on in your life without adding something else. Don't beat yourself up for being 'stubborn' about exercise. We all start exercising when we're ready. It took me over three years to start a consistent exercise program. I think that's true about all aspects of the program. We add those steps as we can accomplish them.
Mousie, because of all of the layoffs my dh has faced over the past two years our credit isn't up to snuff. So, originally they charged us a higher deposit, just in case we left without paying the rent. But since we paid every month, on time, even when my dh had been laid off, they gave us back part of that extra deposit they had charged us. And it wil be enough to fix our car. YAY!
I'm cooking two Christmas dinners this year. One for my family at home on Christmas and the other for my mother, brother, other brother and his family. They are almost a full week apart, so I don't anticipate any food issues. Plus, I'm cooking and buying the food, so I have control over how the recipes are prepared.
It seems that the main issue with me cooking at my Mom's was her boyfriend, but he moved out. Plus, my mom will be very busy caring for my brother. So, she really had no choice but to let me take care of Christmas dinner. It's a load off my mind because I didn't see how she was going to take care of my brother and entertain a houseful of family on her own. It's always bothered me that I couldn't use my gift of preparing food to take some of her burden off, since she hates doing it and has so much else to do.
She's funny, though. I'm 48 and have been cooking for almost 40 years, but she still doesn't quite trust me to be able to pull it off. She is afraid I'll do something "wrong". She's right, because I don't cook her way (which is the 'right' way). I'm kicking her out of her own kitchen so she can't give me bad advice and get mad when I ignore it because I know what I'm doing. She actually told me not to put hot pots on her counter. (Well, duh, Mom. I haven't ruined any counters in 40 years, what makes you think I'm going to start now?)
This is the woman who used to monitor me very carefully when I was in charge of the (premade, store-bought) brown & serve dinner rolls. I was an adult with a family of my own and I got frustrated and told her if she had to keep that close of a watch on me, she could watch the darn rolls herself. And I stopped helping her. Then she got mad because I wouldn't help. Can't win. That's my mother for you.
Basically, she wants someone else to do the work, but do it as if you were a servant and she is in charge. Her way. Period. I won't do that because she's a mediocre cook, at best. So, she has to live with my great cooking, which the rest of the family is grateful for. Nowadays, I think the whole thing is hilarious. My dh says I should put my family in a book because they're so absurd. True.
I've rambled on long enough. I ate really low in my range yesterday. I wasn't as hungry, probably because the rain forced me to skip my walk. It's cloudy today, but dry, so I may take a chance that I won't get drenched and walk later. I need to go to the store for bananas, anyway. So, I'm still on track and feeling good about things.
Happy turtlin'!
Lin
272/235/135 or so