Changing my weight tracker and digressing into ramble
Ok i give. I had made it to 165 pounds but have creeped back to 170. I am upset about it. I have been trying to lose weight since October of 2005. so now I have only lost 18 measly little pounds in 11 months!!
I know that is a loss of 1.6 pounds a month but oh how badly I wanted to be 130 by now, or less. I just dont know how to get back on. Every day I say this is it. I am getting started with it again. Then I stuff my face with everything under the sun. I have carrots in the fridge, do I eat them? NO sir!! I make french fries and eat those. I just dont know.
I worked out today, then ate to much. I refuse to feel bad about eating. Everyone has to eat. When I smoked and people found out I was quitting they didnt smoke around me, When I bit my nails and was quitting, I had nail polish to put on so they tasted bad. What are we suppossed to do about food? Not put it in my mouth I guess. I read people saying brush your teeth or chew gum. Let me tell you - minty breathe doesn't keep me from eating something sweet. I ignore the nasty taste for a couple of seconds then it tastes just dandy. Well poop on crackers no wonder I am fat.
I feel so alone in this fight against my weight, hubby doesn't like thin girls, he loves me thick as I am and doesnt see why I feel so huge. No one else in family is doing anything to lose weight any more even though they are bigger than I am, so I can't even use one of them for a buddy. Sigh.
Anyone else feel like an overweight outcast too?
Poop on crackers? That sounds like the perfect diet trick to me! LOL
Yes, I understand. I'm completely off track right now, have been for a few weeks (a wedding, a road trip, a change in living situations, etc.). I do the same thing - "Today I'm going to eat the kale", yet I choose more inappropriate foods instead.
For me, it's been a series of trying new things. Reading a book about vegetables, getting excited about going for a walk, joining a weight-loss group (TOPS), etc.
You sound like me a couple of weeks ago. I was so discouraged. I have only lost an average of 1.77 pounds per month so far this year. Last month I stopped losing and it looked like it was going to go back up again.
Since then, it finally got cooler down here and I really stepped up my walking again. I started to watch my portions again. I thought about how hard it has been and how far I've already come. I don't want to regain this weight again like I've done so many times! I feel so much better now. My clothes are not tight. I've got more energy.
Bravelilchicken: Just think about the good that has come out of losing the 18 pounds.........Heck I think it's great! Take baby steps if you need to to get back to losing more and more importantly........BE HEALTHY.
Don't get discouraged. I was the same way last year. I wanted to diet, I told myself I was going to diet, and what happened? 4 months passed, and I had gained 10 pounds!
You need to buckle down and make a goal and write it all down and log it all every day (log everything, food intake, goals, exercise). Forcing yourself to write it down may very well be the thing that will keep you from putting in your mouth in the first place! Count those calories, look at all that processed junk in the foods you are eating. Look at the bad and figure out how to make it better. I did all that back in January (after gaining the weight) and now I am close to my goal.
You can do it, but you have to make the final decision and stick to it. It is hard to motivate yourself, but in reality, you are the only one that can really motivate yourself to do something healthy for yourself.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!! We're ALL here with you, and I'm betting a huge number of us have slipped and watched the scale climb and climb back up to numbers we swore we'd never see again! Remember no matter what, you are doing this for YOU. It just might be one of the hardest things I've/you've/we've ever done...but the reward you get at the end is completely worth it.
I can relate to you 100%, you Brave Lil Chicken . I was 139 lbs on Christmas Eve and SWORE up, down, sideways, and diagonally that I would NEVER go above 140 lbs again. And here I am at 150. I let my guard down and suddenly I found myself listening to the negative voice in my head. The one that says, "Who are you kidding? You'll never be thin" and "You totally blew it, Kate. What the heck is your problem?"
But I know I have to trust myself, believe in myself, and be patient, patient, patient. Just keep on pluggin' along doing what I know is healthy for my body.
I had been maintaining my weight very well, and just last week went up 3 lbs. I dug in my heels, started getting more diligent with drinking the water and writing every bite down. It worked and those 3 plus one more are now gone and I'm 1 lb. below what shows on my ticker. I'm not going to change it at this time. It happens to all of us. Don't beat yourself up. Just hop right back on the wagon, you know you deserve to reach your goal just as much as everyone else does. You certainly aren't in this alone.
Yeah.. I think most of us can relate to what you're saying. Some days I've wished that I could just NOT eat, it would be easier than having to decide what to eat that is bad or good for me. I LOVE food, and I want to eat it. It sucks that this is the way it is.. but it IS.
I've been angry at the world and blamed me and everyone else for my fat, so I totally know where you're coming from. I've lost a lot and gained it all back plus more too.
Best thing to do is not beat yourself up for what is done. You can only change what is now, and you can lose it again. You can!
Hey, wait a minute... You have lost 18 pounds, ok? You have worked hard 11 months to feel better, haven't you?. You're a winner for me and I'm not jocking. It's not only the weight loss, I'm sure you're in better shape and feel better that at the start. So... what's the hurry?. I lost many pounds quickly, and gained it all back everytime. And feeling more discorauged and frustated each time. Is that what you want? Losing weight only to gain it all back?. I'm sure you want to lose weight and mantain the loss, and most of all feel good with yourself. Don't punish you. Eating is only a small (but necesary) part of your life but that is all. Yes, I've been a skiny girl and you know, isn't that great, specially when you're losing hair and feeling dizzy all the time. It was not worth it, not matter what people (or men) said. You're losing weight at a healthy pace and this is the most important thing. If you keep the good work I'm sure you are going to reach your goal, but don't push yourself too much. Maybe you need relaxing a little. A good cheat food ( not a binge of course) or maybe forget the workout for a couple of days... anything to release some of the stress. You deserve it. And of course you're not alone many of us have been ( or are) in your same situation . Good Luck!
The fact there was a loss was a gain...Look how far ahead you are now from last year....Be kind to yourselves no matter what you weigh....You are still the same teriffic person....
Dear Brave: Go to the supermarket. Go to produce aisle. Pick up ten pound bag of potatoes. Pick up another ten pound of potatoes. Walk around the store for five minutes holding those two bags. Wake up, Chickie. That's a ton of weight. Congrats on the loss and stay focused!
Changing my weight tracker and digressing into ramble
My clothes are not tight. I've got more energy.
Lots of hugs to you!
. I was 139 lbs on Christmas Eve and SWORE up, down, sideways, and diagonally that I would NEVER go above 140 lbs again. And here I am at 150. I let my guard down and suddenly I found myself listening to the negative voice in my head. The one that says, "Who are you kidding? You'll never be thin" and "You totally blew it, Kate. What the heck is your problem?"
