Ok i give. I had made it to 165 pounds but have creeped back to 170. I am upset about it. I have been trying to lose weight since October of 2005. so now I have only lost 18 measly little pounds in 11 months!!
I know that is a loss of 1.6 pounds a month but oh how badly I wanted to be 130 by now, or less. I just dont know how to get back on. Every day I say this is it. I am getting started with it again. Then I stuff my face with everything under the sun. I have carrots in the fridge, do I eat them? NO sir!! I make french fries and eat those. I just dont know.
I worked out today, then ate to much. I refuse to feel bad about eating. Everyone has to eat. When I smoked and people found out I was quitting they didnt smoke around me, When I bit my nails and was quitting, I had nail polish to put on so they tasted bad. What are we suppossed to do about food? Not put it in my mouth I guess. I read people saying brush your teeth or chew gum. Let me tell you - minty breathe doesn't keep me from eating something sweet. I ignore the nasty taste for a couple of seconds then it tastes just dandy. Well poop on crackers no wonder I am fat.
I feel so alone in this fight against my weight, hubby doesn't like thin girls, he loves me thick as I am and doesnt see why I feel so huge. No one else in family is doing anything to lose weight any more even though they are bigger than I am, so I can't even use one of them for a buddy. Sigh.
Anyone else feel like an overweight outcast too?


My clothes are not tight. I've got more energy.
Lots of hugs to you!
. I was 139 lbs on Christmas Eve and SWORE up, down, sideways, and diagonally that I would NEVER go above 140 lbs again. And here I am at 150. I let my guard down and suddenly I found myself listening to the negative voice in my head. The one that says, "Who are you kidding? You'll never be thin" and "You totally blew it, Kate. What the heck is your problem?"