losing control!
For two weeks I’ve been on and off my diet. I’ve been under so much stress and frustration lately that even though I’m not the kind of person that looks for comfort in food, basically, I’ve just put aside my good eating habits.
My husband and I run a business in Honduras, Central America, and besides all the pressure of it we are helping my brother in law in a event he’s putting together, this has made me work a lot more, and long hours. I haven’t had time to plan my food or do anything. The business is in front of a mall, so at lunch time we just cross the street and get anything to eat. Yes. That’s right: anything. And that means JUNK FOOD. I’ve been eating pasta, tortillas, bread, bread, and yes, more bread.
My husband is not feeling well, I don’t want to think about the worst, but we suspect that he may have something serious.
All this is making me feel even worse. I feel that I’ve been losing control. Besides all this, my husband had a problem with my brother in law that made me very sad, we love my brother in law very much, and they have been so close, my husband is not feeling well about it, and he also has so much stress that naturally affects me. Thank God things between us are fine, and he has been very supportive. But little things get in to my nerves: for example, today I opened the refrigerator and saw that the cheese was not neatly sliced, I may sound like a freak, but to see the crumbs all over the place and all the mess, made me crazy.
Yesterday was the worst. The menu:
B: WW ham and cheese sandwich
L: Pasta (fettuccine with three cheeses and marinara sauce from Sbarro’s) with garlic bread
Snack: Leftovers from lunch
D: Pizza and more garlic bread, with diet coke.
During the day, four cups of coffee with creamer and ½ tsp. of sugar and I basically did not drink water at all.
Besides the diet coke, my like is a mess. I’ve gained 2 lbs this week, I couldn’t get to the gym since Wednesday, and believe me I tried, I like going to the gym because it relaxes me. I want to have children so much, but we need to make some test analysis for my husband before getting pregnant. All this for me is a little to much.
I understand that all of us have things to struggle with; I just needed to get this out of my system. Thanks for listening.
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