For two weeks I’ve been on and off my diet. I’ve been under so much stress and frustration lately that even though I’m not the kind of person that looks for comfort in food, basically, I’ve just put aside my good eating habits.
My husband and I run a business in Honduras, Central America, and besides all the pressure of it we are helping my brother in law in a event he’s putting together, this has made me work a lot more, and long hours. I haven’t had time to plan my food or do anything. The business is in front of a mall, so at lunch time we just cross the street and get anything to eat. Yes. That’s right: anything. And that means JUNK FOOD. I’ve been eating pasta, tortillas, bread, bread, and yes, more bread.
My husband is not feeling well, I don’t want to think about the worst, but we suspect that he may have something serious.
All this is making me feel even worse. I feel that I’ve been losing control. Besides all this, my husband had a problem with my brother in law that made me very sad, we love my brother in law very much, and they have been so close, my husband is not feeling well about it, and he also has so much stress that naturally affects me. Thank God things between us are fine, and he has been very supportive. But little things get in to my nerves: for example, today I opened the refrigerator and saw that the cheese was not neatly sliced, I may sound like a freak, but to see the crumbs all over the place and all the mess, made me crazy.
Yesterday was the worst. The menu:
B: WW ham and cheese sandwich
L: Pasta (fettuccine with three cheeses and marinara sauce from Sbarro’s) with garlic bread
Snack: Leftovers from lunch
D: Pizza and more garlic bread, with diet coke.
During the day, four cups of coffee with creamer and ½ tsp. of sugar and I basically did not drink water at all.
Besides the diet coke, my like is a mess. I’ve gained 2 lbs this week, I couldn’t get to the gym since Wednesday, and believe me I tried, I like going to the gym because it relaxes me. I want to have children so much, but we need to make some test analysis for my husband before getting pregnant. All this for me is a little to much.
I understand that all of us have things to struggle with; I just needed to get this out of my system. Thanks for listening.
Everyone has their off times, and it's so easy to loose focus and get caught up with the events around you. However, there is only so much you can do and only so much you can worry. You need a time out. Taking on all this pressure at the same time will not make you feel like a nervous wreck but do a real number on your body. Stress can only make more stress. You and your husband, because judging from your situation he sounds like he could use it too. Both of you go out, do something the two of you love ( go to the movies, take a walk along the beach). Or just talk about all the stress and confide in your feelings to one another. Soemtimes, we allow those feelings to bottle up[ inside so much we can't see the silver lining.
Your diet shouldn't be a burden to you but a reward to yourself. Food is just one factor in a healthy lifestyle (a fairly important factor). So while your stressing about your personnal life don't beat yourself up about your diet it will not help you get back on track but only hinder you. As for excercise, the gym is not your only option. Walking is very therapuetic and can be done at anytime. Instead of zipping to that fastfood place across the street, pack a quick and healthy lunch, a big water botteland take your husband with your for a walk. Walking is a very relaxing activity that can help release some of that stress that's building up inside you.
Just remember, you will survive this. What will be will be, but your doing what you can and that's all there is to it.
I know how hard it is but just start fresh. I have had slip ups and I try and remember the whole day is not ruined bc I had a taste of something I just have to move on. Before SBD I would slip and that would mean I ate everything and anything since I slipped and had to start new. One of the biggest and hardest things for me to learn was I couldnt do that I just had to keep going. Good luck and you are doing great!
last10lbs - It sounds like you have a lot going on right now and maybe you aren't ready to do South Beach strictly. You don't have much to lose (in fact you may already be at a healthy weight depending on your height) so maybe you should try for a phase 3 until you can get past the worst of your stress.
You should try to find some healthy snacks that you can eat and if you are going to eat at the mall, search for things that are healthier. Maybe grilled chicken breast and veggies? I'm not sure what your choices are.
Please feel free to come and unload when you need to talk. We will keep your husband in our thoughts and I hope his health problems will turn out to be minor and easily corrected.
thanks all. I'm having my hopes up now.
Good! Don't stay away for two months next time!
What a difficult time you are having - I hope that your husband is ok.
Just simply do the best you can right now, and when your situation improves, then you can making improvements with your weightloss...
