Oh, I hear you! I spent the last five years telling myself that "Next Monday," or "Right after my birthday," or, "As soon as this round of stress is over," etc, THEN I would get serious and be faithful to a diet. I couldn't stand the thought of joining a group or clinic or whatever - strangely, because it felt like admitting that I'm overweight (like people wouldn't notice if I didn't say it out loud, right?). And because I really resent being told what to do - even if I'm actually paying someone to do just that

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Now I'm just at the end of my fourth week on IP, and it turns out that weekly check-ins with my coach are the very, very best thing for me! Apparently my need to not disappoint people is stronger than my need to be self-sufficient and independent. Who knew?
Seriously, the fact that I have to see my coach in the morning and show her my meal diary for the week is one of the few things keeping me from eating 2 pounds of leftover Halloween candy while telling myself that I'll start again tomorrow.
SO - I hope your experience with IP is as good as mine, and as good as it has been for so many other people here. The first step is the hardest - so congratulations for taking it!