Hello,
I am a shiny new member, though im not entirely new to weight loss.
I just got onto the scales for the first time in a VERY long time and i actually burst into tears and am still in shock.
I've always been bigger than most of my friends, and family, and i felt big but not obese! Well now i do!
The most i've weighed in the past is about 170 lbs which is not great (being only 5 foot nothin') but seemed like it would be achievable to lose a bit of that. Today i weigh over
200 lbs! I have let my weight get out of control now

It feels like something completely different, that i cant handle! Sorry for the rant but i need some motivation right now!
I have a weird thing, where i kind of thought as long as my belly doesnt stick out more than my boobs when i stand up i feel ok but i hadnt noticed my belly popping out! i know its a weird way of measuring but at least i still felt passable as a female, now i feel like a big round blob!
I'm sorry if i sound whiny and awful but i just cant believe what those scales told me! I thought it might help if i wrote it all down and such but so far its not helping!
Thanks for reading if you got this far!
cc x
eta : i posted here because i am 20! not just picking a random section! but if its not the best place for random ranting then point me the way!