building trust.
Hi all!
I am a 23 year old female who is just finishing up her last four years of college this term. I am looking to start these last four months and 2010 with healthy eating choices and exercise and hopefully trim my figure down in the process. I recently went though a difficult time with a lot of changes, the ending of my first relationship, a new living situation, and the pressures of my final year of school. It was a hard time and it was difficult to find the good in myself and in my accomplishments when i was feeling a lack of confidence in my situation. I guess it was sobering to find out how easy it is to fall really hard and how easy it is to find fault in ourselves during times of struggle.
i realized that I need to work towards trusting myself more. Though its not the only issue, keeping on the extra weight is just one more thing that i have told myself again and again that i could get rid of, but never have.
160 is not my heaviest weight, i actually weighted some time in highschool. I went on weight watchers and lost 25 pounds then quit. The lowest weight i have been is 150 in my first year of college. lets attribute that to the fact that i could only cook rice and stirfry veggies that first year out of the house!
Generally, my habits are not that bad. I am a vegetarian and don't eat alot of "bad" food. But i have a habit of snacking and will give in to a cookie or ice cream to reward my self for long study hours. lol even though i have to be stuck in school for long hours doesn't mean when i emerge from school i want to carry all those snacks that i "deserved" on my hips and into the real world!
My biggest goal is to try and bring balance to my life, even though school is going to be crazy I would like to manage my healthy choices and realize that they are in my control. Basically I want to take ownership of my eating and habits and make myself a priority. I want to build up that trust in myself that is lacking because of so many years of unanswered "i wills." And i want to be proud of myself, and understand that i have complete control over myself and can make the right decisions.
I am ready to get going, planning my meals for my first week back at school and looking for friends who are looking for the same things!
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