[calisa86]

Hey Ladies,

do you guys ever feel like you're sabotaging yourselves? i'll have a couple of days where my eating and exercise are phenomenal then, out of nowhere, with no real trigger, something will pop in my head that says "eat that, now eat that, that, and that" until i've eaten a lot of something i shouldn't have which in turn leaves me borderline depressed and in no state of mind to ever want to work out again. im at that point and wondering, am I the only one? am afraid to be fit? i remember the feeling i had after losing my first 20 and if felt great, i loved it! but the zest has faded and i dont know how to get back into that groove again. i wish i was home already. back in LA, back with my family, back in warm weather where i can hike, and be outside, and go to the beach, and run with my dog. working out in my room just isn't cutting it and being alone so often with nothing to do after work is like signing a weight loss death sentence.

i just dont know why these days ever happen. im hoping i can pull myself back together to start fresh tomorrow, i think i can, but who really knows. i wont weight myself in the morning, thats just asking for trouble but i will try to figure out why, on some days, i eat way more than i know i should. it feels kind of like when someone tells you you cant do or have something all you want to do is that thing and have it, understand?

i so want the feeling of losing weight and feeling confident back. i was at a great place in my life, finally felt like myself. i just dont know how to get back there. guh...done whining, must sleep...

Yup Ive been there and done that many times and for some reason turning down the food in the cafeteria that I serve and work at it has given me the confidence to say no to bad eating. where I work Im serving cookies, pizza, quesidillas etc. I use to pig out on that stuff and gained 15 lbs in the short time that I was working there. Good news now is that I havent taken a bite of any of that food in 2 weeks. Turning down food like that has made me realize that hey its okay not to have those things. Of course after I weigh in on Friday I eat a little more. On weekends I used to just blow it since I would usually drink alcohol and that makes me so hungry so now I limit the amount I drink on the weekend. For some reason I feel like something in my mind clicked and i feel so focused compared to all the other times that I was on a diet. Being on here has inspired me and it reassures that I can one day be a success story and post before and after pics. Just try to keep that thought in your head that you had when you were losing the 20 lbs. good luck

[Feral]

Calisa - we ALL have those days and have done that ourselves. Basically, you just gotta buckle your boots back on, brush your shoulder off and MAKE yourself do it even if you don't feel like it. We allow ourselves to go through those motions then feel guilty about it after we've done it and just continue to beat ourselves up. The best way to get over it is to BEAT yourself... no up, but just to overcome those obstacles that put in front of ourselves. Remember how you're feeling right now the next time that happens... and tell yourself NO I will NOT do that to myself... and find something to distract you.

You can do this!