Yesterday while talking to a good friend of mine, we got onto the subject of the last 6 weeks of debauchery. And how I busted my butt for more than 4.5 months, and lost 46 pounds, only to turn around and put weight back on by being careless, stress-eating, and letting the chaos take control.
And I got to thinking, which for me, can be dangerous.
What we came up with boggles the mind.
I was absolutely self-destructive, at least for the last 3 weeks in June. At one point, from the stress and eating right, I was .6 from a brand new middle number, and the lowest # I've seen to date. Nearing the 50 pound loss mark, too. I saw the numbers continue to go down, and I took advantage of that opportunity to let the food plan go & eat whatever I wanted. Skipped breakfast, and just had diet coke. Bad lunches. Garbage. McDonalds, pizza, chinese delivery. Missed 2 meals, and then have 3-4 slices of pizza, because I was "starving" in my head.
I learned something from this. I learned that it takes an inordinately long time to take the weight off. What it took hard work to do, I managed to throw away in just a few weeks. Granted, I didn't gain back 46 pounds, but I did enough damage that the scale is 15 pounds higher than that all time low I had hit.
Sure, some of that is water weight. Sure, today the # is 3 pounds less than it was yesterday. I'm getting some of the crap out of my system. Once I get all the puffiness out of my ankles (wasn't that nice to see swelling & discomfort there...) from the sodium, there's a few more pounds. Real damage may be closer to 5-9 pounds, but still....
When I equate that with other things that I work hard for...I would never knit a sweater & then unravel it. I would never cross stitch something, only to cut it into a million pieces. I would never do marathon loads of laundry & turn around & throw clean clothes into the dirt. Or mop the floor with muddy water. Yet, here, I worked hard only to throw away that effort. There's no difference, really, except in my head. What the heck is with that??? So, now there are mental changes happening. And I'm not going to spin my wheels in the dirt, and be content to wallow in this. I'm moving forward. Lesson learned. Wisdom shared (or just random babbling posted for public viewing) and now I can take what I've learned & use it.
Breakfast today from our office manager:
1 small plain bagel with just a *hint* of butter
Lunch:
3/4 cup bowtie pasta
2 meatballs
1/4 cup sauce
sprinkle of parmesan
Afternoon exercise:
minimum of 1 mile WATP
something with the resistance bands
Dinner:
something light- maybe more soup, or just a snack-size meal...still feeling "overly full"
Happy Friday, chickies! The weekend is almost here!
Actually, Jaymi, I'll be rolling out the next challenge tonight- I just finished the avatars & stuff....I'll be posting the new stuff as soon as hubby & I are done with our assembly line- we did shopping, and cooking, today, so I'll have more lunches & dinners prepped. I also just baggied 2 boxes of Kellog's Smart Start and Mini Wheats...so breakfasts are prepped & ready to go.
So, I am up 3/4 # this challenge!