Thanks all!!! I was feeling sorry for myself because I ate so really bad yesterday.. But got up and EXERCISED today and I am back on track with water and food.
My oldest daughter had a melt down this morning while I was taking her to work so she ended up having to call her self in and I brought her with me to my job- she was able to finally calm down - she has found a place to move into that is a good place with good people so I don't have to worry about her being on the streets. Do we ever stop worrying about our kids?? Laura, I just read your post and I understand- I look at my younger kids and think please stay little - don't grow up too fast. I keep trying to let my oldest go but then she runs to us when things go bad and we of course help and are there for her, so we get involved again. I will be glad once she is out of where she's at now and away from not so good situations.
OHH Halloween- we solved the halloween issues a couple years ago- the kids go to local stores that they can trick or treat at and there is NO CANDY given out- they get apples , cookies and popcorn, balloons etc. 3 grocery stores in our area do this on halloween and it's great- they go to different departments deli, bakery, produce and they hold out the pumpkin and they get goodies.they get tons of stuff.. for me I will buy the mini bags of goldfish and teddy grahams and popcorn to give out - that way if we don't have a lot kids come by I won't eat the leftover

candy like last year.. sometimes we get lots of kids and last year we had maybe 10-12?? We always have the same meal every halloween for dinner: pigs in a blanket,tater tots and dirt cups- and orange soda.. it started years ago and is a very weird tradition we have ,but a fun one.
Thank you all for fussing at me

! it 's great to have this support!