Sorry for the late update.at 5cm I caved and started iv pain meds. Then 4 hours later,and after higher doses of pictocin I was 7-8 cm...but the pain was too much. I asked for a epidural.
I freaked out and almost didn't get it. After 5min of crying and 2 more contractions, it was in and it felt so good.
8 hours later I was stalled at 8cm and it had been 25 hours since my water broke. So off to get a c-section.

Madeline was born 4:17 am yesterday. 7lb 3oz and 19 inches.
My pelvis never opened up and her head was stuck, they almost had to reach up and push her head back in so they could pull her out. The suction her head created was really strong and loud and her skull ended up a little pointed. But she's healthy.

Awww! Love the name, Sakai!! Sorry the experience was so bad though. I bet she's beautiful!

Amanda,I'm right there with you! We didn't have a consultant to consult at all. But Laney wouldn't ever latch right, so I started pumping and bottle feeding. Then I also had major supply issues, and as of two days ago, after pumping 15 minutes at a stretch every 3 hours, I got a grand total of 2.5 ounces for the DAY. We've had to supplement with formula for two weeks now, and I made the difficult decision yesterday morning that we'd go to formula exclusively. I had gotten stressed out over my horrible supply and lack of latching to the point where I was crying all the time and hated even being here at home. I decided I'd rather have Laney experience her first six weeks of life with a happy mom. She got at least a mixture of breast milk for two weeks, which isn't what I'd hoped for, but is better than none.

Mentally I feel much better today. Physically though...the boobs HURT.

It's just frustrating when you do everything you're "supposed" to do and it doesn't work out.

Congratulations Sakai, so glad to hear Madeline is here and healthy I am sorry you had such a rough delivery and eventual c-section. I hope for a speedy recovery for you

Congratulations, Sakai! I'm sorry your labor was so rough, but I'm so glad everyone is doing well.
Are your cousins there or do you have a couple of days?

My cousin's wife is here now, my cousin will be here in a few days.

I've only had her a day here in the hospital, but already the idea of handing her off is killing me. I don't know how i'll survive this. The idea of keeping her is scary, and the idea of not keeping her is heartbreakingly painful.

As of right now i'm I limbo with my choice. Only because thinking about it hurts too much.


Edit: been talking to lots of family. And while they all agree that we could raise her, they also agree that it's gonna be hard.

It's strange how it hits in waves...i'm okay with the adoption for a few hours, then i'm not.

I'm scared of life changing too much and ending up not happy.

The only good thing is we're leaving the hospital in 5 hours and we're gonna keep her till Thursday. We hope this new life as a family will sink in and we can make a better choice, whichever it is.

Sakai, raisng a child is hard but you can get through it many of us do.

Sakai- Congrats! Can't wait to see a picture. Hopefully you having the extra time with her will help you make the right decision. If you do end up keeping her, know that it is very possible to raise a child. Just make the right decision for the three of you. Also, with the c-section, don't overdo it and don't start back to an exercise routine until the doctor okays it. My doctor has been worried about this- mine still hurts randomly or anytime I sneeze, cough or go for a long walk. Using a abdominal binder really helps if they gave you one or if you can get one.

Wow, I miss a lot when I'm gone. Thanks for all the advice on the weight gain. My current solution is to not look at the scale ever, even at the doctor's office. I'm doing all I can, so why make myself miserable? Especially because I have a tendency to overexercise which I don't want happening with the baby.

Congrats Sakai on a healthy baby girl. I'm sorry you had a rough delivery. I hope you are ok this week, whatever your choice is.

Laney had a checkup today....weighed 10 pounds 2 ounces! Big girl!!

Had some constipation issues over the weekend, but the doctor doesn't want to switch her formula just yet. We suspect it had a lot to do with the transition from at least half breast milk, half formula, to all formula.

Got on the scale for the first time the other day. Went into labor weighing 187 pounds...weighed in 2 weeks later at 163. Not bad...now just need to decide how much I want to lose. My original weight loss goal back when I lost the first time was 150-160....

Thanks for the congrats ladies. I'll have pics up soon.

Right now things have been tough. Maddie has colic we think. She's super fussy, cries all the time, really hard and hasn't made a dirty diaper in almost 48 hours. We're gonna call the Dr. in the morning to see if this is something we need to worry about.

DF and I had a massive meltdown two hours ago when Maddie started working on her 4th hour of crying. She wouldn't even calm down enough to eat. But I was finally able tpo get her to latch on. Breastfeeding hurts! I mean, I knew it was going to hurt but this sucks so bad. @.@ I was crying, baby was crying, DF was crying...We feel like horrible parents that can't deal with simple crying.

I was racking my brain for who I could call at 2 in the morning for help. But couldn't think of anyone. I'm afraid DF now see this as proof that we just can't handle a baby. Truthfully the thoughts did cross my mind as i enter 24 hours of no sleep. But I really want to make it through this and make good memories.

I just worry that Maddie is sick and in pain.

Sakai, you are not horrible parents, you are new parents, when raising children there will be tough times but there are joyful times , too. I, believe that the joyful times far outweight the tough times.

Sakai - The first few days are definitely the hardest. She's probably crying because her tummy hurts if she hasn't pooped in 2 days. Poor thing. Give the pediatrician a call, they should have some advice.

Hang in there!

When Spencer gets too upset to eat, he likes BIG bouncing/rocking motions. We rock him vigorously in the rocking chair, or sit on an exercise ball and bounce in big bouncing motions.

Went in for a check up. Poor baby lost a pound.
We're supplementing now with formula. She eats much better from the bottle and DF can feed her now so I was able to get some sleep (I went 48 hours with maybe 3 hours of sleep and i think that was half the reason I was having a meltdown. She's doing much better, has hardly cried and sleeps lots now, where before she would cry until she was just too tired to eat and would sleep for a hour only to wake up and cry again.

As for me, my only issue is my legs and feet are blowing up!!!!
I never had much swelling when I was pregnant but now my legs below the knee and feet look like they belong on another body. my skin feels super tight and prickly.