Fit: My DD woke up at 2:30 too. ????What's that about. I ended up sleeping in her room so she wouldn't wake DH. The reason I hesitate to tell DH is because he had just questioned me about our checking account/budget, and I chastised him for questioning me. Besides that, he is VERY big about making a good impression on the owners, and will be sooo stressed about it.
We are going to Missouri where my grandparents live, tomorrow, and I just want it to be a smooth trip.
Jessamy: I think you are feeling this way because of SBD. It is so restricting that it causes you to rebel. You just have to keep trying. Even though were up and down in our weight, just imagine what we would do if we gave up completely. we'd all be huge. I have been feeling just like you for 3 years now. Now is the first time that I feel in control. The only diff this time is that I have turned it over to the Lord, w/ prayer. And at the sametime, I am doing my part by knowing when to say when. This is the smallest I have been since DD was born, and it (prayer) is the only thing I have done differently. We have a prayer box at church, you put your "prayer's" inside, and when the members of the church pray, they remember to mention the "prayer box" It works!! This group helps too, but I have been on here since April and only started seriously losing in September. Its a "inside" battle. After all don't we eat for comfort, and self fulfillment. (Like I did last night) Anyway, someone else can probably put it more eloquently. (yeah, I spell checked that he he)



Thanks so much Goddess and Christie. I dont know what I'd do without you all! I like the idea of a "day off". I'd plan my "date" with dd going to bakery etc and the night of drinking with DH for that day. It bothers DD when I abstain during our special time out together too. She wants me to join the fun and pleasure (pus she wants me to stop taking nibbles of her stuff!) I guess since 1 lb is 3500 cals how much damage can I do 1 day in 7!
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glad to have you here!
The only restrictions are portion sizes.
Needless to say my house is a stinkin' mess and I'm b!tchy because of it. I really can't stand total disorder and DH just an't seem to keep up. Its kinda good for him to see what I do all day. MIL has a brand new apprciation for it, she was very sore and tired after 2 days of chasing Lil feller. I'm really lucky to have such a lovely MIL.