piesporter wine (OMIGOSH that stuff is good)
mac N cheese
pb and banana sandwich
oatmeal cookie
pb brownie
big old HOT sausage. (it aint Memorial Day without one of those, hot off the grill)
OK, my friends. Vacation is over til the next on Labor Day Weekend. I am here to admit that I ate pretty clean while away but there were some meals that reverted back to the old way of eating - dirty and much. I also didn't do as much walking while at the marina as I planned, and of course could't lift because of my hand injury the day before we left.
The result was a 3# gain which I told myself I could easily take off. HAH! Not only did I find it difficult to eat clean and less again, but I only hit the treadmill once all this past week. Throw in some self-induced stinkin' thinkin', and I was telling myself it was OK to be going back up the scale as long as I don't go over 180. Last night I was watching Six Feet Under and in one scene, one of the undertakers went to confession. It dawned on me that I needed to visit the confessional, admit my sins and get it off my chest (guilt) before I could face a new week and a restart. And no, it's not OK to go back up the scale - that's just NOT acceptable at all.
My biggest downfall - the dreaded KK's,3 at a time, 3 X in 3 weeks.
I must confess - not just what I ate, but where and how and what i was thinking when i ate it.
I hid in the bathroom (from whom, I know not) and ate a big brownie and about 8 nutter butter cookies. I was mentally lamenting that my swim suit does NOT look as good on me this year as it did last year, lamenting that I got off track, earlier and made more dumb decisions quicker this year than I did last year and lamenting that when i started working out in Feb, I was 30 pounds from goal, in April I was only 15 pounds from goal and now I am about 40 pounds from goal. I did NOT keep my resolution, my workouts are half-a**ed, my eating is ridiculous and I am letting myself down. I was eating and have been eating like whatever it was I was eating was going to be the last sweet, good, thing I would ever have in my life.
On a bright note, I am in Tennessee, away from the office vending machine, and have access to the gym that I love. I will use these next few days to get myself on track. My quality of life AND my life depends on it.
Ok, this weekend was out of control! Friday night was Long Island Iced Teas with dinner. Saturday was pizza, then junk at the drive-in with my bf's kids - popcorn, french fries, Dots, marshmallows, Combos - not a lot of any one thing, but just mindless eating. Sunday wasn't terrible, but there was leftover pizza and beer, then s'mores and toasted marshmallows around the campfire. Yesterday I had Mexican bufffet for lunch, then and icecream sandwich in the afternoon, and leftover jello/fruit pie in the evening.
Whew - too much! But, back on track today, if it kills me - and it may!
Cindy
Food since Friday has been BAAAAAAD to the Bone !!! Daily evening wine intake I MUST stop THAT !! The BBQ's we've been having are ok food wise not too much junk, well, maybe a little, but honestly not that much...
Here is the list....
Friday night : wine & popcorn at home with friends...
Saturday night: 2 margaritas, wine with supper and small chocolate cheese cake for desert ...
Sunday night: wine, chips, chicken wings,
Monday night: Dropped in on a neighbour and had Lemonade and vodka, later on watching a movie with DD some chips... I NEVER eat chips !!
Altho the rest of the above mentionned days were perfect food wise the evening and entertaining was very BAAAAD....
Boy, I sure hate to be the one bringing this thread back to the top of the list, but I promised myself I would confess if need be.
Last night it was coconut macaroon ice cream. This was somewhat premeditated - I've been jonesing for coconut ice cream for weeks - it is so hard to find, and when I ran across it at Wal-Mart this week, despite my newly found resolve, I just couldn't pass it up, and bought the 1/2 gallon. I suspect I won't eat much of it - it's incredibly sweet and literally knocked me on my butt last night! B&J's has a much better one, but it's only available in their stores. Maybe next time I HAVE to have coconut icecream, I'll promise myself a trip to the store for a cone, and that will be it!
Cindy
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