ha, I cross posted with ICUwishing for advice to Petra!

I'm weighing daily at this point - that worked really well for me in March, but did not work well in April, so May will be my testing ground to see what happens. 2 out of 3 wins! lol!

I'll see if I have the energy to come back for a few more personals after I get my son in bed, but just in case, hello to everyone else and hope everyone is starting off the new week and new month well!

Ange: I've reached a point where I am obsessing over every morsel I put in my mouth and feeling deprived most of the time. I have to make trade offs like: because I had an apple today, I can't afford a glass of wine and something about that is starting to feel twisted. Neither are unhealthy choices or gluttenous.

Becky-I have to take the pics off the camera and put 'em on the computer and will try to do that tomorrow then firgure out how to post 'em here. Robert took pics of the hills I clambered up today that have mne feeling so smug...

Barb

Petra-we always have to choose, and sometimes no choice is better or easier than another. I'm sad for you to feel deprived; that doesn't seem like it should be necessary. I feel like that occasionally, but not all the time or I owuld likely just bail out. Are you getting enough sleep and vitamins and are you relaxing enough? Getting enough relaxation time now that your work has calmed down? I count every morsel too and it's frightening to think I may have to do it for life. Can you turn it around and look at it as an opportunity to choose healthy and goal oriented instead of deprived? I wonder if you are somehow sabotaging yourself inadvertently because you are convincd you are always hungry. Can you do 1/2 servint of wine and diet soda or club soda to make a spritzer and still feel satisfied? Then you could have 1/2 an apple. Eat the apple while you walk around the block twice. Hang in there!

Barb

Congrats to Ian, anniedrews!

Petra, I think it is hard not to become overfocused on our weightloss as being underfocused is what got us all here in the first place. I am trying to make the exercising daily my main focus, so I don't obsess about the food and scale. Have I been good...no I am letting the scale get to me. I ate ate at Chili's this weekend...healthy, not over calories, but the scale popped up on me and I'm hoping it is salt/water retention. It's going to be a process for me to make the exercise more important that the scale....I just have to keep at it.

Heidi...good to see you...glad you are recovering and feeling ready to walk!