Tuna--what a great idea! Too bad I didn't see your post BEFORE I ate. I had a 1/2 sandwich with peanut butter and honey. Not exactly low calorie, but I didn't stand there and eat the peanut butter straight out of the jar and I didn't get that crazy rush feeling. It feels foreign, but I think this is how a normal person eats. (eat when you are hungry, pick relatively healthy choices, eat a reasonable amount, don't get obsessed, don't get too excited--it just food, etc.)

Day Four: not too bad and no binges for me!

I'ts funny how knowing I'm not alone, that other people have this strange desire to eat everything in sight sort of makes me feel more in control. Does anyone else feel this way?

Before, it was a deep dark secret that I felt no one else could understand. But talking with you guys I realize that others do understand and I'm not as odd as I believed. And somehow it gives me more power over my eating. ???? The mind and emotions are very strange.

Sarah in MD

I am so screamingly frustrated! I had a binge that started at 8pm last night and didn't end until my DH pulled the food from my hands and asked me some hard questions! Why is this so hard? I didn't even like what I was eating, and my stomach hurt because it was to much! why!?!

...so now its binge-free day one again and time for some self examination, why is it that as I get SO close to my first goal of being under 300lbs that I keep sabotaging myself? Why am I so self destructive?! Why eat till it hurts?!

I do the same thing. I do my best and eat healthy all day long and as soon as night comes I eat and eat and eat. I eat more calories at night than I have eaten all day long. To make it worse, every night I wake up in the middle of the night and eat! It's hard to have will power at 3 am.

lost. I have had those nights... but you know, the great thing is you have an awesome attitude about starting in again right away to day - stick with that! You can do it - we're all rooting for you. =)

Sorry gal's, I have been in a "Funk" as of late, I mean I have not binged but I have been in my own world, moody ec... I think its from the lack of food, I don't know...ugh.. But I have been thinking of ordering ourlife fresh meals to my house, the ones Ruby is on? I really need to get my life under control. I think what helps is getting out of the house and i signed up for a 14 day free trial at our local gym The Rush fitness complex. I am going to go down there next Friday when we get paid. I also start school this tuesday, I'm finally getting my GED and applying for college! This week is going to be tight on funds so i think ill just go get bags of frozen boneless skinless chicken breasts and bags of veggies. we will see.... I need to make 50 bucks work for a week for myself and my hubby...

I just wanted to say how grateful I am for all the online support and honesty. It really helps!

I am also a bit in a funk, the PMS is starting to get me (I usually get really moody). I usually start EATING when my emotions start getting to me like this, but I am committed to staying on plan.

I didn't make it to the gym today, which was another bummer, but so far I am on track food-wise.

I am going away for the weekend with my girlfriends and I have lots of healthy snacks packed. Wish me luck! I will let you know on Sunday how I did!!

Five days binge free!

Karen

Hey Ladies..not sure how I didn't see this thread before now..but I want to join if that's okay...I am doing okay the last couple of days..definitely have my times though...also, I have have LOCKED up cereal at my house...horrible it has come to this...my hubby and children all eat it and it MUST be here...so, it had to be locked away from ME and my MOUTH...

so glad you guys understand..so glad I am not alone..what the **** took us this long to come up with this thread idea??????

Christy, Karen, D...so glad to hear you girls have stayed strong! That's some inspiration I need! Today is Day 3 for me. I don't want to binge, but the urge is ever present. Why is that?

Thighs, I totally understand about food that must be in the house, yet must stay away from me. Unfortunately, my family won't lock it up...instead the jar of cookies and plate of pastries is sitting on the counter.

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

Ok. I want to eat. I need to not eat. I was still hungry and decided to grab a little more to eat before bed - started in and started justifying just bingeing and starting over again tomorrow - NO! I want tomorrow to be day 7, not day 1!!! Channeling all my strength tonight.

Hey guys... I'm sorry to admit that I binged tonight. Not on one thing in particular, but I just kept eating and eating ... no matter what I ate I still felt hungry! I think it was more of a mental hunger than a physical one... I ate almost twice the amount of food I do normally; there's no reason I should have been hungry, but I felt such a strong need to eat...

There's a good side, though: I didn't feel the usual feelings of blankness or disgust (I paid attention to what and how much I was eating); I didn't stuff myself to feeling sick; and I only ate one cookie. There was a whole bin of them, but I didn't feel nearly as strong an urge to eat every single one. Most of the food I overate on was pretty healthy, actually (like edamame).

So even though I ate far more than I needed, and will reset my counter (sigh), I'm still proud to have gotten as far as 5 days. It's also heartening to know that even after just 5 days, my binging habits have changed at least a little. And I'll get right back on track.

Iris, I hope you made it through binge-free ... same for the rest of you.