It's a LONGGGG story....very long. I have kept myself together...but there is always that ONE person that you will just always care for no matter what they could do or did or not do or be doing or the what not...and things have come up to where it's almost right in my face again and it just...I can't say breaks my heart...cause it don't. It semi tugs at it though. And it just makes me think...sometimes I call myself a fool for even thinking/caring for years and years but...that's all. Not in love, not in lust, in deep thought only. Although my heart needs an On/Off switch!!
I have a great husband who understands and that I DO Love very very much. For that I am grateful beyond words. I have always been able to talk to him about this stuff and he just always seems to know the right things to say or do to make me feel better. Besides, he loves rats as much as I do. Those kinda men are hard to find!! All of my rat girlfriends want to know if he either has a brother or can he be cloned?? Hahaha!!!



I have to watch what I say here in regards to "that" cause I have certain people in my personal life that "lurk" here just to see what I type & what's going on in my life and then proceed to bug me about it later on.
kidding kidding!! hehehehe



