I hovered between 120-130 in high school. Junior year I had some personal issues and got down to about 110 and even then I always always always felt fat. I had hips, a butt and boobs thanks to my genes, and hated the way I looked, I was definitely the most curvaceous (fattest) cheerleader. I look back now at photos, and I was hot, not fat! I was curvy in all the right places but didn't realize it then. I had the body of a 25 year old but was too young for it, so I hid behind clothes that were too big for me because I wanted to hide what I thought was my fat self. I was always self conscious of my body (what teenage girl isn't right?)
I got pregnant at 128 lbs when I was 18, and gained exactly 100 lbs through that 9 months partially due to preclampsia/edema and my constant cravings for peanut butter and chocolate! The day I gave birth I was 228. I walked out of the hospital a week later at 180-the 9lb baby and all the edema went away during that week in the hospital and I'd lost 48 pounds. It took me a year and a half to get down to around 140-145 and I stayed there until about 8 years ago when I was diagnosed w/RA and a mild form of Lupus, and couldn't walk for a year..which brought on another 100 pound weight gain thanks to a lovely little diet I like to call prednisone and pain. I guess when I gain weight it's no sissy little amount for me! If I'm going to gain I'm going to gain big!
What I wouldn't give to be 128 again....But-that was 16 years ago and my body has changed and I don't expect to look the same or for my body to even be able to get there. Childbirth and age changes the structure of our bodies. I would be happy to get to 135-140 and be healthy.


